Spike is jumping conclusions... because he is jealous and / or was left out during the pregnancy. Oh Spike to idealized her when she wasn't in his reach? And yet or because he is on his way down, heavy drinking now. Is he deep enough to go back, change? Looking forward to find out.
Doyle? A good friend, but he didn't have the right to tell Spike to go especially when Doyle got bitter and told him to stay away (bitter why? because he wants Buffy?) even when Buffy told Spike about everything? It's Buffy's decision; he is old enough to make her own errors.
Yet he hears what Doyle said because he didn't try to talk to Buffy.
I wonder if he'll change now or if it takes more. If his wife or his father in law finds out that he has a child he'll get a lot of pressure and/or trouble. He should get a divorce before they find out. (On the other hand, they have money and if he wants a divorce they'll maybe find out, searching for dirt. ~ See still reading till now.

Great name, How did you think of Brandon? :)

Oh you talented you , you break my heart all over again !
Great conversation between Doyle and Spike, I agree with everything Doyle said.. but I'm just waiting for Spike to react. And now that he has seen his beautiful son , will it be enough to make him realize that he has the power to change his life and Buffy 's life ?
Okay , I'm dying to read the next part , and dying to know what Spike will decide.

It was a gorgeous and moving chapter.
Spike please , go to Buffy and ask her to forgive you .. but get rid of Cecily first !!!

I know that Spike is the uber-coward and self-loathing destructo-asshole in this, but nonetheless, that last scene was one of the saddest moments ever. To see your beautiful child and be unable to touch him or do the mother anything good, how devastating.....

Awwww... I like the way you're writing this story. It's so sweet and heartbreaking all at the same time. I especially like the way you mix narrative with dialogue so that we don't spend huge amounts of time going over and over what everyone is thinking constantly to the detriment of the flow of the story. You get the balance just right. Your Spike's a dog, but he's a lovable dog and I like his characterization as well. Hope you post more right away. I can't wait to see where this goes next. Thanks. :-)

Doyle was out of line, it wasn't his place to make her decisions. Glad he got to see his son; maybe he'll give his wife the bum's rush now. When will we have more interaction between the two main characters again?

awww cant wait to see what happens next!!!!

Points for Spike for caring, points for staying, points for really feeling ... for Buffy and for his son.

MAJOR POINTS for Doyle for being the best friend ever.

Spike really beats himself up ... why the lack of self esteem? Too bad he hasn't been apart from Cecily all this time. It would help to make things easier than having to crawl over broken glass into a pool of alcohol like he is destined to do if he wants a life beyond those doors.

But hey, there is light at the end of this tunnel . Right?

This chapter was extremely well written... you really covered a lot of ground here. PHEW!

Author's Response: Things with him are reaching a head, especially now...as far as his self-esteem, don't get from him that he ever really had much of one. I think his underdeveloped sense of self with Cecily just got worse and then he just ended by hating himself for being so weak and getting himself trapped. He's all about the feeling sorry for himself.

Spike's finally seeing what might have been. Great chapter!

so he wasn't there to witness he son being born (in the hospital but not in the delivery room) loved it soooooo much. where do they go from here? great job. please post soon.

Why doesn't he just divorce taht bitch?!?! I wonder how Buffy will feel now. IS she going to be happy or sad? Update soon please!

I'm glad that he stayed. I would have had to jump into the story and kick his ass if he hadn't. Lol