I'm very glad to see another chapter. So the thanks goes back to you :)
Like every victim of rape (or of violence) it's hard for Buffy to cope with what happened to her. Such a victim should see a counselor. Spike is taking the role for Buffy as a sire I guess.
And this essence Buffy was feeling and worrying about, that's what make her special. I really hope for Buffy's sake that she can cope with what she became.
~ Looking forward to more if you have time :)