wow, that banner is quite...graphic shall I say.

So, what can i say, two new chapters yay!! The writing in this chap is amazing as usual, the way you've described his first foray into vampirism is just...you can picture it so well, you can almost feel it yourself. amazing.

on to the next chappie

Author's Response: lol. Hmm, and here I thought my banner was sexy. :P I'm glad you liked the chapter. I've been so afraid of chasing some readers off with the shift in tone, but I can't do anything about it. This is the way the story has to go. I'm glad you're still enjoying it. Thanks for the review. :)

Wow... This was an amazing chapter. The way you described everything was just... delicious. Loved it so much, so fantastic-- and I'm really looking forward to seeing how William's beginning years as a vampire (before he manages to stumble upon Buffy again, as he undoubtedly will :D) play out-- again, this chapter was just amazing. :) Loved it so much!

Author's Response: I'm so glad to hear you say that, Devin. Thank you. :)

Whoa and wow this has taken me a few days to read bur wow this just blows me away its so good please upload more soon its killing me its that good!

Author's Response: I'm glad you like it HolyMoley. Thanks for taking the time to tell me so. :)

Love the impact of the words to this chapter, very descriptive and assualts the senses with his view on his new situation. Thanks for the update, really loved reading it and look forward to more.

Author's Response: I'm glad you feel that way, Vette. Thank you for taking the time to offer me feedback. I really appreciate it. :)

Poor newbie turned vamp Spike in wanting to go home only there really is no place that is home like the one you want to return to and even turning his Mom wont go the way he wants it to go either. I wonder what it will be like for him to meet the gang and how he will find himself along the way and get back to Buffy. I just love this new chapter in the Willam saga your doing here it's really fan-freakin-tas-tic Joss should give you a call!!!!!!!!

Author's Response: Thanks so much, Forbidden Loves. I'm glad you enjoyed the chapter. :)

Talk about a panic waking up dead next to a dead dude you think Dru woulda... Well it is Dru come to think of it, it is exactly what she would do, Sort of like the doctor who made Frankenstein only interested in the result with no thought of the making of the monster. I thought it was great how you had William confusing Dru with his gone Elizabeth days and her touches and caresses and him just longing for her but then finding only Dru instead. A probably Dru is using her thrall a little into pulling William forward to do her will so his new side and vampire feelings or habits I guess I mean to say come forward. Even when he realizes he's dead and a vampire he's not really shocked but he does feel anger probably at her for now forever prolonging his emptiness and loneliness in a life/afterlife without her. Most likely William would have preferred a suicide to a eternity without his lady love. And now he's kinda stuck and unsure of what do do other then to follow her lead. I saw the need of having the blood lust scene with him and Dru makes total sense in the vampire bonding and so forth even on some level he knows she's using him he just no longer cares with the guilt he feels over thinking he was the cause of his loves death and probably on some level thinks this is what he deserves for not protecting Elizabeth. I think this is fantastic in your showing of the making of the monster in what used to be a caring loving man. I do feel badly for Anne she must be beside herself first with Elizabeth thought to be dead and now too her William. Like a great novel I look forward to turning the page on this and see what your next page will be. I read your post at the top of the page and people should keep in mind this is a Spike story first and Buffy second. But I think this is sort of the best part because for the loneliest time we had only Buffy's perspective and now we get to see all of William the good and the bad and how he struggles to become a master vampire and finds the will to move on after Buffy and survive.
Triumphant part 2!


Author's Response: I know this chapter was a little graphic, but I don't think it could have been any less so, given the subject matter. I'm glad you weren't put off by the scene between William and Dru at the end of the chapter. I was afraid people would be up in arms over it, but almost everyone who has reviewed understood the necessity of it, which is great. As always, I want to thank you for your wonderful review. I hope you continue to enjoy the story! :)

From the very beginning of his unlife Spike is unique. Instead of the typical mindless, ferociously hungry, homicidal fledgling, we have a confused and still grieving William. Then enter Dru, and I for one think that is a good thing. He never would have survived without her, I doubt he would have lasted 24 hours.

I adored your take on William and frankly I was heartbroken after his death in the last chaper. The poor guy never was able to find the comfort and ease that comes with loving and being loved. He never was never able to relax and bask in it. That just kills me. So I'm glad this update didn't come quickly. As silly as it sounds I needed the time to mourn him. I'm ready now to see Spike's evolution. But I will always love your William. Thanks for such a skillfully written story and take all the time you need to write it. It's worth waiting for.-Martine

Author's Response: Martine, I don't think that sounds silly at all. As a matter of fact, the reason this update took so long was because I developed writer's block to it. Not because I didn't know where the chapter was going--I had it all mapped out in my head. But I think that I, too, had to take a little time to mourn William. Thanks for the review. :)

how long will part 2 last? i'm just hoping it won't be over 20 chapters like the first part. i'm too impatient for my spuffy. i will continue this story because it's really good, but it will be hard for me to read about him with drusilla. i just hope you wouldn't make it completely like the show, which has spike turning his mother. i also hope he wouldn't really fall for drusilla, we know how much he loved her in the show, but i hope he'll never stop loving buffy. i like one idea that i read from someone's comment about spike eventually leaving drusilla and being on his own, hopefully not joining up with darla and angelus because he's bound to turn him into a monster. i have a feeling he'll completely forget about buffy then. i'm anxiously awaiting more.

Author's Response: Part Two will, in fact, be the same length as Part One (give or take a few chapters, of course). I know you're excited to see the reunion with Buffy, and I know how hard it is to take, seeing William/Spike with Drusilla. But I promise, there is a very good reason I am including all of this in the story. I'm glad you're enjoying the fic. Thanks for reviewing. :)

With the TV series I loved Spike first and then when you learn of his past you love William too and in this story it's the reverse you loved William first and now we have to learn to love Spike. I'm really dying to see how you make me fall in love with your version of the Spike character. So far your off to a great start here in showing the monster now in the man my hat is off to you in how hard it is to write him up a past and show all the inner turmoil he faces. You've taken on a huge undertaking but I think your talents with the pen will see you flying thru this. I for one am blown away with every new chapter and turn you take into making of Spike and his history that all leads him up to a full circle someday with Buffy.

Author's Response: Thank you for the wonderful feedback, SpikesDeb. It means a lot to me to hear that you are enjoying the story that much.

This section was my favorite part :

(((But the woman shook her head. “You shall live forever.”
Forever. Then, there would be no merciful death, no peace from the burning in his heart. William felt a flash of anger at the girl; this was not what he had thought she was offering him when she approached him in that dark alley.)))

Cause it really showed he wanted his own death over losing Elizabeth. Even with the sex with Dru seems right on because he's so messed up right now from his past life and this new-ness of being turned his confusion in this chapter was perfect. If this is the secondsecond of the story I look forward to what is to come. It is so very good.


Author's Response: Thanks so much. I'm glad you are continuing to enjoy the story. I really appreciate your detailed reviews; they make my day. :)

You won't hear any Buffy whining out of me I'm loving this till the end it's just so good. Please post more!

Author's Response: Good, 'cause I hate whining! :P Just kidding. But seriously, I'm really glad that you're happy with the shift in focus. Thanks for taking the time to tell me so.

You've given us a detailed narrative of William's first few hours as a vampire and in the company of his sire, Drusilla: it shows us the need for blood, the excitement for violence; the disaffecting but very necessary, sex. It confronts William's fledgling dark heart: able to do all these terrible things but still yearning for his light, his Elizabeth.

William's life was, pre-Elizabeth, a seeming tragedy in the making. Post-Elizabeth, the tragedy is most definitely, complete.

Fantastic episode.

Author's Response: Thanks so much, sue. I'm glad you liked it. :)