This took me a few days to read but it was really worth it its so romantic and tragic and exciting to read I hope you keep going because I really love all of it and I have hope for the lovers no matter what happens I have hope!

Author's Response: Thank you so much. I'm glad you like it. :)

My favorite part

“Oh, yes?” Angelus smirked. “Then tell me this, my lad. If your girl saw you now…if she saw what you’ve done in her absence…would she still love you?”

William opened his mouth to answer, but almost immediately, he closed it again. He knew the truth, of course. He just couldn’t bear to say it.

Facing things is never easy and it is a fact Buffy would not love him like this so I gues he has to decide on his future and how much of who he is he is willing to lose if that makes any sense or not.

This is my favorite story of all time and its no where near finished yet and I want more so bad I am dying for just another page :)




Author's Response: I agree completely. She would not love him as he is now ... she might want to, but she couldn't possibly. He isn't the same man; he's done terrible things for which he is not sorry. You have a great handle on where I'm going with this. I love hearing your thoughts. Thanks for reviewing. :)

Poor Havisham even a idiot should not suffer so. What was the song? Does it tie in with the killing the lyrics? Or is it a happy tune? There was a lot of guts and stuff but it's vampires and in Spike form you kept him amused at what he was doing to someone he deemed as a wanker. Spike always did have snake when he was being evil.

LOL Darla and her naps I just knew Dru was gonna get her hands on something and would know his secrets.

Hide the ring!!!!!

Please more when you have a chance!

Author's Response: I agree. No one deserves the treatment Havisham and Archer received. William is doing the wrong thing for the right reasons ... which does not make him a hero. I'm glad you see that and that you like the story. Thanks for reviewing. :) ...oh, and there's a link to the song at the beginning of the chapter. Have a listen. I think you'll like it.

I really like the way you dealt with the interpersonal relationships between Angelus, Drusilla, and William in this chapter. I especially like the banter between Angelus and William; it suits both their characters.

Oddly enough, I couldn't get upset with Drusilla for destroying that book. Knowing that it had been ripped apart was sad, but poor, crazy Drusilla did what she believed she needed to in order to keep William.

Awesome update, as usual. Please update again soon!

Author's Response: I agree completely about Drusilla. In a way, I hated her for doing what she did, but in another way, it's understandable. She cares for William, and he's holding himself aloof from her. It must be painful and confusing, especially given her mental state. Thanks for the review. :)

He is repulsed and still he is drawn to Dru in being his sire and Sngel and Darla seem annoyed with William bring his work home with him. Even with the gore of the kills I cannot blame him for killing off those jerks from the party lol in a off-beat way it reminds you when at a party use your manners or it may come back to bite you in the butt lol. All these killings are giving them bad press so I can see where in the coming story he will be better off to be hunting Slayers for his torture kills and less focused on his old life. He is still a young vampire he will learn a lot and that might help him too in his missing of Elizabeth it will give him purpose I think. Great new chap. I love seeing it come up with a new update I get all excited.


Author's Response: I'm glad you liked it. Thanks for the review. :)

Seems Drusilla wanted William to punish her and even though evil he would not cross that line and hurt her. Angel was interesting that he just kinda stood back and did not step in other then to be annoyed that Darla was pkissed over the singing lol I loved that part it so made me giggle.

Author's Response: Angelus is wavering between being affection for William and irritation by William's somewhat unorthodox behavior. I always sensed that same dynamic between them on the show. I'm glad you liked it. Thanks for telling me so. :)

I liked how you had Angelus and Spike talk in this and how Spike does push the envelope with Angelus and little by little is becoming his own man. Ok ok ok I said man but I mean it in the sense like in becoming a vampire he's becoming a man like a adult. Very cool!

Author's Response: Thank you. I'm glad you like it. :)

I never thought about it before but I guess you really do kinda have to find yourself when you are no longer a hunan and become something else.This would explain Spikes change in clothes and the phyiscal and visual changes he does to himself later down the line.

More soon please

Author's Response: I'm glad you liked it. Thank you. :)

I'm not sure if cutting all ties to his human side is possible but he really isn't a man anymore either. Super post

Author's Response: Thank you. :) And that's a very accurate summing up of what's happening. He isn't the same man he was ... but he isn't a complete monster either. Joss himself called Spike an "anomoly" for retaining so much of his humanity after he was turned. Humanity, of course, does not always go hand-in-hand with compassion.

"Just who am I, now? Who am I, really?"

Poor William. How confussing it must be...

He still feels he is William. His love and grief for Elisabeth are still there eating his heart out.. He still loved his mother and wanted to make her better and stronger, that was the reason he turned her. He doesn´t go as careless through his un-life as he wants to give the impression he does.
No, he needs to drink his sorrow away. He needs to drink to torture. He enjoys it, yes, but still he nead to drink, not to feel. And then, it must be confussing... His mother wasn´t the same when she was turned... and now Angelus is telling him that he isn´t the same person... that ..."The girl didn’t give that damned book to you; she gave it to a man who doesn’t even exist anymore.”

And then the nail in the coffin:

"If your girl saw you now…if she saw what you’ve done in her absence…would she still love you?”

Brilliant writing.... really. And then you had Angelus telling him this things... Hmm... I have the suspicion that you like Angelus... I have the suspicion that you have a little Angelus in you....

Please update soon. Please, please, please!!!!!



Author's Response: Oh, I definitely like Angelus. I'm not a big Angel fan, but I always loved seeing Angelus on the two shows -- especially flashbacks of Angelus. He was just so delightfully evil, reveling in his murders and even becoming pretentious about them. (A real kill, a good kill ... is pure artistry). He's trying to pass those same feelings on to William. William, of course, will not always remain an apt pupil. ;) I'm glad you liked the chapter. Thanks so much for reviewing it. :)

Wow. I wish this was one of the novels on my nightstand table so I could read it until the wee hours of the night. I find myself looking for your updates constantly. For the last few chapters, I have been holding my breath while I read of William’s monstrous transformation. I am hoping that he resolves his existential crisis without metaphorically killing William. I have a sneaking suspicion that you will unify your story line with the show’s story line. That in the end (one hundred years down the road), Spike’s character will not be all that different from the show’s unloved Spike. I don’t want it to be that way, but it looks like it might be. No matter what, though, I am sure it will be a good read. I think your story telling and writing skills shine brightly.

Author's Response: Thank you so much, jenb. It's wonderful to hear that you are enjoying the story that much. I really appreciate your telling me so. :)

Great chapter! Loving the story!

I keep thinking about what Angelus said about William's "lass." I wonder whether Elizabeth, if she was merely a Victorian Elizabeth and not Buffy, would really be able to love him. Buffy on the other hand will be an interesting case: not only having to reconcile William and Spike, but also (depending on how time traveling will affect her) will have to reconcile her feelings about William, and about the pre- and the post-time travel Spike.

Author's Response: As he is now, it's questionable that Buffy, even as a Slayer, could love him. He is, after all, a killer. However, it also begs the question...would he have become a killer had Buffy been there? Glad to hear you are exploring all the possibilities. Thanks for reviewing. :)

You are bloody brillliant

Author's Response: Why thank you. How nice of you to say. :)