I love Buffy is sort of in mourning for William I am just hoping she can still see the human sides in Spike if anything it was his loss of losing her that made him into the way he is now vs him becoming a vampire. The sad thing is here is in losing the woman he loved made him more into a monster then turning ever could.

I loved the inner struggle Spike is going through at the beginning of this and how he's trying to see it from all sides with the little bit of information he gets from Dawn. I'm sorry but I about cheered with someone finally in a fiction showing/confronting Willow about her just moving in and taking over, I am dying to see when Buffy finds out about the household accounts and Willow and Tara being there rent free and not putting anything into the household. And I suspect Dawn may have a inkling as to maybe Buffy being back in Spikes timeline given to what she has seen as his reactions to all of this. As much as Dawn wants some answers Spike is also looking for someone to convince him Buffy didn't leave him on her own and that their love in his past life was real. And I believe Spike would see Willow sold into a slave trade before he's ever let Buffy sell off his bracelet to her. It seems like Willow caused a lot of damage sending Buffy off back in time but was sitting pretty up at Buffy's place that maybe someday she might return to, seems to me Willow got more ahead in all of this while Buffy suffered. I wonder how that will be handled. I would be bothered too by a friend just moving into my mothers room I mean she's barely gotten past losing her mother.

I loved Spikes reaction to hearing about Angel being called because it's exactly how I saw it happening in my head. As well as Buffy inner turmoil in fighting herself in her own feelings and reactions to Spike and how she is fighting herself to not see him as the man she knew and loved. She is standing loyal to her love to William so it all fits exactly on what a girl would be feeling given all that has gone on. And I thought it rather sweet her picking apart her current appearance and in her head Williams voice telling her she was beautiful without things.

Betrayal is the perfect word here in how Spike would feel with someone he cared for at all in connection to do with Angel. I thought it was fantastic you had Spike feel like he was cheating on Elizabeth with his feelings for Buffy. And Buffy not being fooled by Angel and seeing thru him is at least hopeful. I felt so badly for Spike leaving one battle beat up and bloodied and then coming face to face with Angel. And being Angel and who he is you just know he's going to go after Spike for spite.

How can Buffy get past Angel trying to rape her in a ally but Spike being turned makes him no longer her William?

If Spike learns Angel was the one who attacked her in the at street that night he was out of town will there be hell to pay?




Author's Response: **** How can Buffy get past Angel trying to rape her in a ally but Spike being turned makes him no longer her William? **** Poor Buffy. It's easier for her to believe that vampires are merely demons inhabiting dead bodies, and that they have nothing in common with their former selves. Otherwise, she would have to admit that Angel (her erstwhile lover) is the same creature who killed her Watcher's girlfriend and tried to rape her in London. She would also have to admit that William - *her* William, her ideal love - became a murderer. That can't be easy for her. Whether she will be able to face the harsh truth ... well, that remains to be seen. Thanks for reviewing! :-)

aaagh! you are evil!!! I want to know what happens between Buffy and Spike with no stupid Willow or Angel any where near them!!!

Love this muchly!!



Author's Response: I am very evil, aren't I? lol. But I'm glad you're enjoying the story regardless. Thanks for the review! :-)

That was an absolutely wonderful chapter. The emotions of your characters are so strong and real. I'm so excited to read more. You are awesome!

Author's Response: Thank you so much! :-D

Well that was a surprise. I didn't think she'd be so happy to see Angel. Oh well, the story is still great. Poor Spike he always get's a raw deal.
Looking forward to updates.



Author's Response: Thanks so much for the review. I'm glad you liked it. :-)

Two of my favorite stories posted on the same day I feel really spoiled here but am loving being spoiled lmao.
Dawn is so good in this story and her friendship with Spike is perfect. And her telling Spike of the money situation and about Willow
I liked Buffy going thru her closer and choosing to put on total void of fashion wear cause that is exactly whaat a girl does. Please Buffy see Spike all beat up and react to him as if he is still your William and go to him. Never mind Angel or whatever his butts doing there just see William in Spike right now he needs you to see *him*

Author's Response: You're so right. He's aching for her to see him as the same man as before, if only as a version that's been damaged by his experiences with the world. Thanks for the review. :-)

she knew he was lying..............

She seems to know Angel is not the vision she used to have of him I hope she remembers that when she notices Spike standing there.
So much pain Spike has going on right now I hope she gives him something to hold on to as a sign of hope.
Excellent update I was hanging on every word.


Author's Response: To tell you the truth, "she knew he was lying" was more a reference to his telling her that it would be okay than any suspicions about his being the same person as Angelus. Maybe I didn't write that in a way it would be clear, though. If so, I'm really sorry. But it will be addressed in more detail in the next chapter. Thank you very much for taking the time to review. I'm glad you're enjoying the story. :-)

::::::Throws my sausage muffin at Angels head::::::


This just gets better and better and I have the sneaky feeling Angel might put 2 and 2 together on this. I loved Buffy putting Willow in her place a bit cannot wait till she hears about the money and Willow nor Tara working just spinging off her mothers money.



Author's Response: Angel is definitely not dumb, whatever else he may be, so you could be right. Thanks so much for the review. :-)

You are taking us down some tricky road and you are being very true to character! Buffy in canon would not see Angel to be the same as Angelus and Spike as a monster. I really like where you are going with this, thank you soooo much for the update.

Author's Response: It's great to know you think I'm being realistic to the characters. Thanks so much for taking the time to review. :-)

Oh Angel always did like to stick the knife into Spike and twist it and I don't think he's done twisting yet. I like Angel I really do but where Buffy is concerned he always wants the "best" for her and if that isn't him (and it can't be) then she shouldn't have anyone - definitely not Spike. Then Spike not really thinking about the outcome but just needing to get to Buffy. Oh I love it and I'm not going to try and guess what's going to happen I want to watch it unfold as beautifully as it already has. Thank you so much for the update.

Author's Response: Yeah. I don't believe Angel is a bad person with his soul, but he's selfish when it comes to Buffy and he's never been compassionate with Spike. We'll just have to see where that leads in the next chapter. Thanks for the review. :-)

I hope this is cool, understanding Angel and not stupid Angel. But it seems not.

Author's Response: Angel was being very understanding of Buffy and her needs. Spike? Not so much. But then that isn't too surprising, given their history. Thanks so much for the review! :-)

Well, it was clear that meeting each other in the present wouldn´t be all hugs and puppies, but this is very disappointing, especially because Buffy doesn´t even remotely consider anything of William could be left in Spike. And I don´t think it is the normal reaction, either. Wouldn´t anyone who lost what she did scrabble and search for the similarities? Wouldn´t we want to believe that we have a chance to pick of some pieces to put together? If William had simply died, there would be nothing left but memories. I don´t get her apathy and that she isn´t curious at all.
The complete lack of any interaction or talking puzzles me a bit, it feels weird. And if I didn´t hate Angel before, I would now, extremely so.

Author's Response: I'm sorry you're disappointed. But, honestly, I don't think it would be at all realistic for Buffy to believe that Spike and William are the same person. Her last interaction with him before heading to 1880 was when he tied her up and threatened to let Dru kill her if she didn't tell him she did/could have feelings for him. Also, she has always held the believe that vampires are nothing but demons inhabiting corpses; she mentioned this many times on the show, often prompted by Giles' teachings. If she *did* admit that Spike is just William with 121 years' experience behind him, then she would also be admitting that William is a murderer, which would be absolutely devastating for her. Her reluctance to accept that they are the same person also accounts for her reluctance to see him, but we'll be delving into that more deeply as we go along. I hope you keep reading and thanks so much for the review. :-)

ow ow OW.

Meep.

Author's Response: ROFL. Um ... thanks? ;-)