So not only Spike had problems going back (hunted by Dru now, must have been his guilty conscience, poor Buffy too. As I thought, she doesn't want to see William (work with him) now but mostly because she thinks he doesn't want her.
I wonder if I know that 'Anne' now going by another name?
Nikki is hard to William well he gambled his favors away. So it's like he thought: Being able to go to the garden kept the carvings away. That will be hard for him now but punishment has to be hard, huh?
Ah Giles is clever; Nikki and Angelus played good cop and bad cop.
So that has happened before, Buffy blaming herself for the errors that other made (like Liam).
I hope Liam will be honest in his quest to help William. But in the garden it should be noticed if he wouldn't, right?

Author's Response: guilty conscience and all the crap buffy protected him from. you guessed about anne, there will be more, this fic seems to be writing itself at times and your right. any dishonesty would be noticed straight away, but doesn't mean Angel has to be nice to william

oh my god,what sort of an idiot is he at times?! i can't believe him,what a prat! i'm really really enjoying this story,i wanna read more,it's brill!please,please update soon!

Author's Response: update soon, broken souls can be stupid, he can't see her pain yet, but he'll learn

I'm late reading, busy with work that cuts reading time.
Closure for Buffy then...they know each other three years now; it's longer for Buffy that her mom died I guess. ~ Sad thought that Giles thinks Buffy and Spike should be together in their next life.
Oh and Giles was really there in person. Spike would have loved to see Buffy in real too.
Getting closure seems to have Buffy done good. The picnic was a real good idea, gave them some 'us' time.

Author's Response: thanks for the review, you'll find out later that trying to organise for the next life is FAST, this fic will cover years and years more soon

Mmmm Buffy knows the color of Spike's eyes very well and likes them. Good to see the 'like' is vice versa. Oh and you know your JM well, huh? (14/3some).
I'm sad that this happened to Buffy. (But even more that in RL it happens too often that nobody notice it, like all this years for Buffy.) Without the dream she would be a lot more damaged (in her mind? can't express it better). I don't know what was more terrible: nobody noticing all the years or her own mom not believing her.
But I see, that's why Buffy can't go over the second base; I thought too early that she hadn't been 'damaged'.
Very dark but good chapter.

Author's Response: oh yeh, i know my JM:~) child abuse happens all too frequently and Joyce's response is a classic, her comment of 'have you ever tried not being abused' is , unfortunatly , taken from real life glad you enjoyed. there is more angst coming up later, but things should lighten for a while. thanks for he review as always

Wow, I was gone through LJ and you have another update already? That is really quick :)
Very hard experience for Spike, loosing his mom. In a way he lost his father too the way his father treated him. ~ An own elephant can indeed be very useful *gg*. Oh scratch that; Spike's father was hitting him? Then he wasn't a good dad from the start.
Buffy is good for him, she was already able to help him (made him feel better). [ And all in her sleep ;-) Both of them are dreaming when they met. ]

Author's Response: no, no live journal, this is the only place i post. thanks as always for the review. i actually have a couple more chapters of this one written, and one well onthe way so i'm hoping to update frequently especially as my muse seems to be being nice at the moment. more angst to come

Hee, I'm so glad Spike has such a wonderful friend in Xander. I think he and Buffy had been instrumental for Spike's new approach to life. I'm turly looking forward to more, sweetie!

Author's Response: Xander stays a good friend. glad you enjoyed, thanks, as always, for the review

Really, truly, have never read a story like this one and even if there's still some darkness underlying, I'm interested enough not to care. ;) Wonderful chapter!

Author's Response: many many thanks. your reviews mean so much. lots more to come

Wow! Yes, I see this is dark and while it's not the usual type of stories I read, I enjoy your writing style and will continue reading. So far, I have to say I feel very bad for the destructive spiral Spike has fallen in. Off to read more.

Author's Response: glad you are enjoying. it will get dark again, but it is spuffy

Oh how good Spike took Buffy's advice to heart and took the job; that saved him for now. Weird though that he had the dreams about the 'bad things', he dreamed about what happened to the frat boy.
Because of him being away he was lucky. Vampire want-to-be's? Seems they have gone too far. Do they really believe they are vamps?
Looking forward to find out.

Author's Response: glad you're still enjoying it. the story will cover 20 + years. so hang in there

Yes, I know that it's a dark fic, and I'm really curious as to when it's going to kick in... Although I don't usually read dark fics, I'm going to try and stick this one because I like your writing style.

Enjoyed this chpter, thank you for posting it! xx

Author's Response: it will kick in soon i promise.thakns for the review. I really love your stuff too,

Awww! I wanna know where he is... as you say, it's not heaven, but where could it be? My head hurts trying to think!

Good one making Xander gay! It's funny! are you gong to match him up with Lorne? Hehehe

can't wait for the next update, pleae make it soon! xxx

Author's Response: wait and see all will be explained glad you enjoyed. be warned this fic will get dark

Can't say I'm very fond of B/o. or S/o. stories; sometimes it's too hard for me to read. Depends... Interesting start though... the dreams mentioned are more important than I thought first. I'll continue; if it gets to hard to read I'll wait a bit.

Author's Response: please keep with it. it is going to be very spuffy. the B/O S/O is minimal and really needed honest. no details I promise