Dude, I think how you are portraying Buffy is completely honest! I mean, her Dad bailed on her, Spike crushed her when she was her most vulnerable and having it thrown at her that he was waiting for her, doesn't change all the years of her waiting and trying to heal. She basically spent years getting over him and is completely tired of the constant drama that surrounds everything he represents. Of course, Riley will look like what she thinks "love" should be. She has seen what unblinding faith in a man that you love can do to a person, i.e. her mother, so she hasn't figured it out yet. Don't let people keep you from writing what you believe to be the true character. You are spot on my dear!

Author's Response: Thanks, Nicki. I have been totally blown away by the positive response. After getting that one bad comment my mood was bordering on despondent with a side order of anger. Now, I can totally see that I was being paranoid. Thank you so much for helping me see that. Thanks again!

Hmmm, this Buffy IS flaky, because she never told RIley or Spike what´s really inside. She is lying all the time, the only conversation that sounded half-way to truthful was the one she had with Willow, and even in that one, she lied to herself.
There is no logic behind anything, either. If what she had with Spike has the ability to leave that dark hole inside and almost kills you when he leaves, how can it not be love? And if it´s extreme like that, how can she not acknowledge, that she is doing exactly that to Spike now, that although he did nothing wrong, she hurts him the same way now, uncaring?
How can she claim to love Riley, when she didn´t give one thought to him while falling into Spike´s bed? You simply don´t do that to someone you love, especially if you don´t love the other much more.
I get what you wanted to achieve with Buffy´s actions, but you´ve made her something worse than shallow, you made her a selfish, uncaring, two-timing liar. Is that really better?


Author's Response: Angi, I am truly sorry that you find not only my story, but writing style to be illogical. I tried to portray Buffy as a confused college coed who just had her life disrupted by the reappearance of her first love. She has been hurt in the past by many men, not to mention the whole issue of dealing with the mistrust she now has with her mother. I never intended for her to come across as selfish or uncaring, and personally, I don't think I did. If she were uncaring, then I don't believe she would have felt guilt or remorse for cheating on Riley. Yes, she did cheat. I cannot condone that, but it was crucial to the story. She shared something with Spike that she had not shared with Riley. I am sorry if that offended you, but I will not apologize for writing my story the way I want to. It is a sad fact that people do cheat on their significant others even when they care for them. Hate to say it, but it's true. The word adultery was made for such a reason. After your review, I asked my other readers for their honest opinions and I have to say that out of all my loyal reviewers, I have found only you to have a problem or any confusion as to what I was trying to convey. I am very sorry for that. Thank you anyway for taking the time to review, I do like to hear from all of my readers. I sincerely hope that you stick with me and see where my story takes you.