totally loving this story so far. i'd love to read more

There's angst - then there is this. I waited for two chapters to see if you could make Spike human; but unfortunately he is too big of an asshole for me to want him to ever be with Buffy. If he actually dares to leave her in this time of emotional upheaval then, sorry, there won't be a way to redeem him. You don't walk away from commitments like that. I wouldn't be able to stomach Buffy even talking to him again let alone getting back together with him. If he does actually leave, I might read another chapter to see if you give Buffy someone to love that is actually worthy of her or to see if one of her friends gives Spike the beating that he deserves.