You know I feel about this chapter, I thin it's one of the most beautiful things ever written, but I still didn't expect to cry AGAIN while reading it. I should have known better.

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“Those moments and that special someone? For me that’s you, Buffy, and I… I jus’ wanna pretend that you... A-at least for a li’l while.” He sucked in an anxious breath, afraid how she’d react over what he was about to ask of her. “Make me forget. Please? Pretend that you care `bout me… if only for tonight?” --- I was sniffling with Spike having to face mortality and loss for the first time.

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She pressed her lips against his softly, willing and able to give him more than what he’d asked for. “I don’t need to pretend.” --- I was crying my eyes out.

The realizations they both came to were of immense significance and the fact that they managed to get closer through this ordeal says a lot about the depth of their feelings.

Can't wait for more boo, love you, your writing and your brilliant mind! *hugs tight* (and still crying, so you know)

Author's Response: Oh boo, I hate to make people cry - so sorry my darling sister. Offers you a box of cyber tissue. I'm so glad though that you saw the significant impact the whole situation brought out for our fav couple. And thank you so much for being there to help me and for being such a good friend - luv you boo.

So sweet and sad. The way you are bringing them together seems very organic and believable. I am still loving this story.

Author's Response: I'm so glad to hear you say that sweety. Indeed I'm trying to keep things realistic - ok, despite Murphy's Law throwing al kinds of wierd monkey wrenches their way - but that's part of what helps them along on the way towards love. Thanks for the great review darling - smooches.

Nicely done.

Author's Response: Thank you sweety - huggles.

A beautiful, emotional chapter and OMG when Spike asked Buffy to pretend to care - could that be any more moving? I'm not sleeping very well at the moment. Do you think I could borrow Spike - just to snuggle with of course?!! No need to ramble on because I've said time and time again how much I love your writing. x

Author's Response: YAY - I'm thrilled you were moved by Spike's words, it was meant to be intense and imapctful, thank you boo. Luv you lots and lots - smooches.

It's interesting to see a human Spike who hasn't dealt with death, when canon Spike is so used to it. A reverse in assurances.... Yeah, cuddling is addictive! Buffy's still so afraid she won't be able to keep a man...well, waiting only works if the man knows what he's waiting *for*. If she strings him along just for the fear of the unknown, when they both know what they want, he'll eventually have to push for a decision. It isn't fair. I hope he'll get her to reveal what she's hiding about the Riley relationship...

Looking forward to Cordy's latest take. Now that's a girl that seizes what she wants, LOL.

Author's Response: I never thought about it lie that, but you're right - it is interesting to see spike del with deth outide of canon. And oh, yeah, cuddling i more addicitve than any drug out there, hee - especially when its spike. And you hit on an interesting point no one else has yet - Buffy is insecure about 'not being able to keep man' - something I've tried to convey with very subtle undertones - very astute of you darling. As for him pushing, well, he may have to doa bit, yes, but it'll be for the best, for both of them. As for the Riley facts she's hiding - just wait til she reveals it, its a whopper, giggles. I think you'll really enjoy Cordy in next chapter - she's a hoot to write. Thansf or the fab review sweets - luv ya.