As much as they have been through I find it strange that Spike react as badly as he does, mayby a few years ago but now should he be secure in their relationship. I wonder if it will be Angel that makes Spike see reason?. I will just have to wait and see.

Author's Response: Hi magnus! You would think he'd be secure with Buffy by now ... but I think deep down, he still feels like he's a monster who doesn't deserve her love - he may not even realize that those insecurities are still there and they make him overreact to things like this. Plus, with it involving Angel ... that's a hundred plus years of anger (and jealousy?) there built up. He truly loathes Angel, not just for what he's done recently, but from him stealing Dru when Spike was in the wheelchair and everything else Angel did to him when they traveled together as vampires. Spike could definately use a 'time out' to get some perspective. I had seriously considered making it be Angel who finally knocked some sense into him, but it will actually be a chorus of voices with someone who can perhaps explain Buffy's side of it to him better leading the way... that person will show up very soon!

Thanks so much for reading and sticking with me through all the angst and Spike's stubbornness ... I love hearing from you!

-P4S 2010.12.14

So, I at least thought about my proposal today! lol Love the update. Willow and Tara are priceless - way to go with the wily woman witchy power!

I don't think I mentioned that I the pictures really add to the story. Please keep putting them in!

Thanks for the update. :)

Author's Response: Hi IT! Thanks so much! I'm glad you got something done on your proposal! LOL! And thanks for mentioning the pictures - I sometimes think I should drop them, because they can take as long to find as it takes to write a chapter if my muse is on a roll (really!), but then someone will tell me how much they like them (and I like them too!). Anytime you see a chapter with very few, you'll know that I just ran out of time ... some stupid RL thing came up and I wanted to get the chapter posted, so I saved time on the pictures ... but I will keep doing them. Thanks!!

Got more for ya ... hopefully, you can get something actually written on your proposal today! :D

Thanks soooo much for reading and stopping in here! I love hearing from you! -P4S 2010.12.14

Spread the pain and misery! It seems that Spike is holding Buffy responsible for every hurt and betrayal he has ever faced in his existence. I feel that he is exploiting Annie by using her and the twins to make Buffy pay for her lies. For example, the story he chose to read to Annie of “The Boy Who Cried Wolf” - Could he possibly be any more clueless? The child is missing her mother and he keeps rubbing salt into her little wounds. Whatever issues he has in his personality and marriage, keep a neutral zone and a united front for the kids! I hope Spike’s goal is not to make the kids hate Buffy and selfishly hoard their love for himself. Another dad (Xander) needs to chastise him for what he is doing to his kids. Annie must feel like her Daddy is trying to make her choose him over her mother. Imagine telling her that her mother ran away and didn’t want them anymore? It would serve him right to have the kids taken away from him through a wish granted from a vengeance demon for hurting them and thrown straight into the fairytale of “The Boy Who Cried Wolf” – for punishment. Spike would be the shepherd boy and his kids the lambs. The Scoobies could be the villagers and he goes through the misery of helplessly witnessing the wolf threatening to eat his kids. It won’t go as far as the kids being chomped on but threatened and insecure while under the protection of the shepherd - who exploited them for selfish reasons - which Spike is doing. The lesson here is that the wolf is following his primal instincts just like Buffy was following her own maternal ones. Spike should know that Buffy will always follow her instincts as a mother, wife and as a slayer. Spike selfishly used Angel to make Buffy and the others chose which vampire they want as a favored son. Still, Bad Buffy for lying but her instincts left her no choice. Look forward to more.

Author's Response: Hi Vette! Wow ... your reviews are awesome! I don't think Spike was meaning to rub salt in Annie's wounds ... I think he was trying to get a point across that lying is wrong ... he just isn't handling any of it very well.

You would think he'd be secure with Buffy by now ... but I think deep down, he still feels like he's a monster who doesn't deserve her love - he may not even realize that those insecurities are still there and they make him overreact to things like this. Plus, with it involving Angel ... that's a hundred plus years of anger there built up. He truly loathes Angel, not just for what he's done recently, but from him stealing Dru when he was in the wheelchair and everything else Angel did to him when they traveled together as vampires. Spike could definately use a 'time out' to get some perspective. Maybe someone will show up and help open his eyes very soon!

Thanks so much for reading and leaving your wonderful reviews! I totally love your ideas!! -P4S 2010.12.14

love this story, since the very begining. your writing is amazing, i get so into the emotions of the story. poor little Annie, i wanted to cry for her :( hopefully all this angstyness will lead to some amazing Spuffyness in the future ;)

Author's Response: Hi Spuffy6! Thanks for stopping in! I'm so glad that the story is touching your emotions ... I know it does mine! And yeah, well, you know, the more angst, the more spuffyness we'll have to have to get over it! :D

Thanks so much for stopping in here! I love hearing from you! -P4S 2010.12.13

...and if it zero tolerance zone: he run, and staied away and f*cked Harmony and then waltz in like nothing had happen! It was Buffy who apologiesed for treating him badly cause she left him behind on cemetary! He dost trust Angel because of Dru but he blames mother of his kids for it. Lovely. I could justify being hurt but things he says to Annie all wrong. They will get back together and she will have years in terapy... Will she respect her mother after it all? She already feels all insecure and can't share her worries with anyone. So sad he is ruining his kids life. But you right he think he had all the reason to do so... Love it! Counting time till next chapter!

Author's Response: Hi Carrot! Oh, you are so right on all counts ... how could their kids not spend lots of time in therapy, even without the stress of Spike and Buffy separating or divorcing? But without Buffy there, heaven knows what the kids will do. And yeah, Spike thinks he's right - he thinks he knows best and that he can raise the kids fine without her ... it will take a lot of voices to convince him otherwise - perhaps one voice of reason will come from an unexpected place ... Will post another chappie tomorrow or maybe late tonight ... it won't be long for you to count! Thanks soooo much for reading and hanging in here through this very sad time! -P4S 2010.12.13