1. Chapter 1 by evildeadgirl [Reviews - 25] (1414 words)
For all intents and purposes ( thanks Steanne) we are going to assume that the Orbs of Nezzla'khan that “The Trio” was after at the beginning of “Seeing Red” are meant for some other reason besides the eventual “Super Warren. What they are for is still a mystery. The story picks up right after the Trio retrieve the orbs from the demon cave, minus the Super Warren demon fight. At this point in the story Dawn has already made Spike feel like an ass, Buffy and Xander have not had their little chat, and def. minus the big "rape" scene. This is rated NC-17, althought..it may take a bit to evolve into that. I figured it was easier to just start with that rating and get it over with. :D

This is my first attempt to get myself out of the Post/Chosen Post/NFA rut I have been stuck in, so please R&R!

Story title comes from the song, "Mean to Me" by Tonic :D Gotta love the inspiration.

** and italics denote first person thoughts.

2. Chapter 2 by evildeadgirl [Reviews - 12] (1378 words)
I'm having a blast writing this, so I really hope you enjoy it! And thanks so much for all the great reviews, I was blown away by how many the first chapter got!

A special thanks to Tammy for reminding me what color Angel's eyes are; can't help if it I tend to focus more on Spikes. :D

3. Chapter 3 by evildeadgirl [Reviews - 10] (1749 words)
I'm trying to pace myself with this fic; I'm having too much fun, and I don't want to forget about my other ones. :D

Leave a review! I love 'em!

4. Chapter 4 by evildeadgirl [Reviews - 14] (1642 words)
I don't know why it took me so long to post this; I apologize. I've been spending the last week putting the finishing touches on my Spuffy Fanfic awards site. I'm looking for fic judges if anyone is interested drop me a line.

This chapter is for StateofMind...cause I know how stressed she has been this week, and she deserves a little cheering up.


The image isn't working for some reason, and I'm not going to fiddle with it.

5. Chapter 5 by evildeadgirl [Reviews - 14] (2095 words)
Been dealing with the new award site so I haven't been updating; sorry for the delay! Go check out the site and nominate, Burst into Flame Awards

Thanks again to Jade for being my new language consultant and helping me out with my English slang.

6. Chapter 6 by evildeadgirl [Reviews - 8] (1276 words)
Sorry for the delay :D Big thanks to my new beta Sirc!!!

Don't forget to pop on over to my new Spuffy award site BIF Awards and nominate your favorite fics!!

7. Chapter 7 by evildeadgirl [Reviews - 13] (1717 words)
Yeah so I'm starting to realize this fic is going to be very long. There is so much I want to get through, so I expect to be writing this one for quite some time.

I think in the last couple chapters I was starting to lose my original story line, so I revamped this one, less angsty, less "soul searching" and hopefully a bit flufflier. Leave a review!

I do also realize this fic is rate Nc-17: I was tired of switching ratings for each chapter, so I left it there.

Don't forget to pop over to my Spuffy award site BIF Awards and nominate your favorite spuffy fics!

8. Chapter 8 by evildeadgirl [Reviews - 14] (1548 words)
I was anxious to post this one, so all the errors belong to me. My betas have yet to see this. :D

9. Chapter 9 by evildeadgirl [Reviews - 19] (1182 words)
OMG I know twice in one week! I took a cue from Brat, who tries to update daily. Its a shorty I know, but at this rate I'll have another posted this afternoon!

The errors in this are all mine; haven't sent this to be beta'd yet.

Hope you enjoy!

10. Chapter 10 by evildeadgirl [Reviews - 19] (1698 words)
You'll notice some of the dialogue is from S3, "Lover's Walk".

Thanks for all the reviews !! :D

The errors in this one are again all mine, because the beta'd version isn't back yet :D

This chappy is for Jade; I hope you had a fabulous weekend sweety!!

11. Chapter 11 by evildeadgirl [Reviews - 15] (1338 words)
Once again, not beta'd just lil ole me. I'll update with the beta'd chapters once they get back, so xcuse the errors :D

12. Chapter 12 by evildeadgirl [Reviews - 13] (1592 words)
Hopefully it will be clear about what is going on...but bear with me because it may get a bit confusing.

TY to Brat for the Rileyism.

13. Chapter 13 by evildeadgirl [Reviews - 13] (1594 words)
Sorry for being MIA with the chappy last night, wasn't feeling well.

This is beta free, and chocked full of errors. Enjoy!

14. Chapter 14 by evildeadgirl [Reviews - 14] (1436 words)
:D Enjoy!

I suggest opening the following link in a new window so you can listen while you read. This is the song I wrote the chapter to.

Reading Music

15. Chapter 15 by evildeadgirl [Reviews - 15] (1762 words)
Phew...this chapter took forever to write. Just a few notes, we're just going to assume that the S5 Spike kicked out or got rid of Harmony before he brought Buffy to the crypt. I didn't really want to get into that confrontation, so I left it out.

Reading Music

^^^Open in a new window; themed writing music :D

Once again, beta's haven't gotten the chappies yet, so the errors are all mine.

16. Chapter 16 by evildeadgirl [Reviews - 12] (1145 words)
Sorry for the shorty-but it needed to be the way in came out. :D More very soon, I fell behind a day and will make amends tommorrow.

17. Chapter 17 by evildeadgirl [Reviews - 16] (1182 words)
Another shorty..I'm really not trying to be lazy, but I think trying to stretch the chapter length makes the plot seem a bit desperate. Or something like that. :D

18. Chapter 18 by evildeadgirl [Reviews - 11] (1770 words)
Just a reminder, this is un-beta'd :D So the mistakes (and there are plenty) are mine.

19. Chapter 19 by evildeadgirl [Reviews - 17] (1269 words)
Sorry the delay in the chapter, ended up writing half of Brat's new story last night and therefore didn't have the creative juices to write this chappy before I went to bed. She took the best of me *sigh* :D (You know I love you)

I'm going on vacation tommorrow, and I hope to have at least 2 more chappies posted before I leave. I don't know for sure if I will have the resources to update while I'm gone, but I'll try my best. If not, look for a new update on Saturday!

20. Chapter 20 by evildeadgirl [Reviews - 11] (1861 words)
Back from vacation!! :D Sorry for the delay, I needed to sleep off all the food I ate over the past few days.

This chapter may be a bit confusing, but hopefully you will understand what is going on. As always reviews appreciated :D

21. Chapter 21 by evildeadgirl [Reviews - 11] (1396 words)
Thanks to my very pessimistic, and negative expert on poetry. :P

22. Chapter 22 by evildeadgirl [Reviews - 13] (1605 words)
I want to thank everyone for their support during the first round of the BIF Awards. I can honestly say I'm a little relieved the first round is over. :D Congrats to all the winners, and everyone who was nominated!!

And a big "thank you" to whoever nominated Drag Me Down at the Fang Fetish Awards!!

23. Chapter 23 by evildeadgirl [Reviews - 17] (1618 words)
We're really getting into it now :D

Warning ::: Character Death

24. Chapter 24 by evildeadgirl [Reviews - 10] (1275 words)
i know I'm going to lose some of you on this chapter. Basically, I didn't want to rewrite the entire episode of 'Grave' so I do a lot of jumping forward from one scene to another. :D I hope you'll stick with this, things are def. going to get interesting in the upcoming chapters. :D

Special thanks to Brat for helping me through this chapter. I'd still be stuck in a rut if it wasn't for her.

If you are looking for holiday spuffy, go check out the new community I created at LJ BtvS Holiday Fics YOu don't have to have an LJ account to read the stories :D

25. Chapter 25 by evildeadgirl [Reviews - 19] (1298 words)
Big *hugs* to Nic for betaing this in light speed. :D

Just a reminder, go check out Btvs Holiday Fics for all your holiday fic needs! :D Plenty of Spuffy !!

26. Chapter 26 by evildeadgirl [Reviews - 15] (1439 words)
Sorry for the delay; have been juggling updating this and writng for all the holiday ficathons.

As usual all errors are mine. :D

Make sure to go check out BtVS Holiday Fics. Right now it is 99% Spuffy :D I know I keep pimping it on here, but I love would see to more people post their stories!

27. Chapter 27 by evildeadgirl [Reviews - 17] (1603 words)
Wow, long delay. :D So sorry, packing, and getting done at my job, and of course all the holiday ficlets took up most of my time. I'll try to keep the updates rolling until I move on Thursday. :D

The beautiful banner was made by Lyri for my xmas prezzie :D She made me two, so I'll have to alternate on posting days.

Just a note, 7 months have passed since the last chapter, so we are now mid-season 7 appr. with the timeline. I don't know if it is actually seven months, but it sounded like a nice solid number.

28. Chapter 28 by evildeadgirl [Reviews - 12] (1376 words)
Well, I'm all moved in and have the Internet up and running again for a few weeks until I go away to school. It took longer than I expected to get everything sorted, but I'm back now :D

29. Chapter 29 by evildeadgirl [Reviews - 9] (1232 words)
Go and check out BtVS Holiday Fics and sign up for our Valentine's Day Ficathon!! :D (pimp pimp I know)

30. Chapter 30 by evildeadgirl [Reviews - 10] (1263 words)

31. Chapter 31 by evildeadgirl [Reviews - 10] (1198 words)
Sorry for be MIA. Just moved to Chicago, and started college, and have been a busy little bee for the last few weeks. I'm back now though :D Hope you like!

32. Chapter 32 by evildeadgirl [Reviews - 7] (1220 words)

33. Chapter 33 by evildeadgirl [Reviews - 7] (1840 words)
I wonder if my new laptop is a sign of longer chapters to come? ;)

34. Chapter 34 by evildeadgirl [Reviews - 9] (1878 words)
I apologize for the weird formatting, I think I've got it fixed now.

35. Chapter 35 by evildeadgirl [Reviews - 11] (1223 words)
2 in 1 week!

36. Chapter 36 by evildeadgirl [Reviews - 3] (1303 words)
Almost to the end folks. Sorry for the delay, life got in the way. I was going to end it with this chapter, but I figured I'd do another after this, and give you a bit of warning!

37. Chapter 37 by evildeadgirl [Reviews - 13] (1542 words)
Wow, this is finally it. This is the third long story that I've started, and the first I've had the pleasure of finishing. I have to thank Vampgirly and Brat for their plot advice and support early on in the process, I probably wouldn't have had the courage to finish this without them. Although I've written several short stories, this is my baby, what I like to consider my first fic, and I'm so happy and a bit sad that the journey is finally over. Thank you all so much for your reviews and support!