Kennedy: …those damn union blossoms are not better than jalapeño poppers…now I know you’ve gone completely insane.
William: Piss off, those jalapeño poppers taste worst kangaroo blood. But union blossoms they even rival newborn kittens in terms of taste.
Dawn: Gross Spike. Has that what you’ve been eating since you’ve been back besides people.
William: Lil bit, what brings you down here. Come to poke fun at a helpless vampire.
Dawn: No, not exactly but did you just call me “lil bit”.
William: And what’s it to ya. Don’t like being called lil bit anymore. No apologies here.
Dawn: You remembered what you used to call me. What else do you remember?
William: Stuff here and there mostly of me being a soft stupid wanker. Finding out that all this sodding stuff is true. Not sure how I feel about that anymore.
Dawn: Soon as Buffy gets back everything will go back to the way it was.
William: …tired of not knowing who I am and which me is me.
Dawn: (starts to leave) See you later Spike.
William: (starts having convulsions) Bloody Hell…
Dawn: (worried) Spike what’s wrong!
William: (convulsions intensify) Need…some…Uhh…
Dawn: Kennedy I think he needs some blood or something.
Kennedy: I’ll go get some (leaves).
William: (convulsions hit their peak and Spike passes out) Uhh…
Dawn: (instinctively walks up to him) Spike it’s gonna be Ok. We’re getting some blood right now. (touches him) Spike…?
Dawn stands in front of Spike touching his shoulder and suddenly he smiles. Before Dawn can react Spike jumps up and wraps the chain around her neck and holds her close to him.
William: Sorry lil bit I know exactly who I am…and that life you people keep telling me about I don’t want any part of.
Kennedy comes down the stairs with a cup of blood and drops it at the sight of Spike choking Dawn.
Kennedy: Let her go or your dust…Spike.
William: Will do right soon as you unchain me here. Cuz if you don’t (vampire face) I just might have to have a taste of lil bit here.
Kennedy: I don’t trust you for a second.
William: Sorry lil bit your Slayer friend here prefers that you die (opens his mouth and bites Dawns neck lightly).
Kennedy: Stop…Ok.
Kennedy reaches for the keys on a nearby desk and walks slowly toward Spike who is still holding Dawn. Spike unwraps the chain around Dawn’s neck and instead uses his arm to hold her close. Kennedy unlocks the chains around his feet then the ones on his wrist releasing him. He walks while dragging Dawn with him until he reaches the stairs with Kennedy keeping a good distance away. Spike then throws Dawn in Kennedy’s direction with Dawn hitting her head on the desk and Kennedy runs to check on her. Spike runs up the stairs and makes his way out of the building.
Cut to:
As soon as Buffy steps into the Hell dimension she hears nothing but screams of pain and suffering and has to cover her ears for a moment. She looks around and sees rocks and lava surrounding her. Small pathways of rocks form the roads to this place and she sees demons of all sorts stuck in the walls of rock. Their bodies are halfway into the rocks and are unable to move. All they can do is screaming and the screams are endless. She sees a temple in the distance and carefully makes her way toward it. As she approaches the temple she can see a demon guard at the entrance. He is holding a staff and is about twice the size of Buffy with many horns sticking out of his neck. He notices Buffy coming toward the entrance and blocks it before she enters.
Demon: Who are you? You do not belong in this place. Leave if you cherish your life.
Buffy: Why don't you take a break bozo, I just need a word with your boss.
Demon: Who seeks the great Dioxin? You, you pathetic little human? How did you find this place. No one enters.
Buffy: Didn’t know I needed an appointment. Does he have a secretary where I can leave my name and number? If not than I’m Buffy as in the Slayer and I’m here to take back something he stole.
Demon: (firmly) No one enters.
Buffy goes and trips the demon who crashes to the ground. In one swift move she grabs the staff from midair and plunges it into the chest of the Demon who melts away into goo. Buffy enters the temple with staff in hand and finds Dioxin sitting at his throne apparently sleeping. Buffy bangs the staff on the floor to wake him up.
Buffy: Special delivery. We’ve got one fine tasting cow here. Who’s gonna sign for it?
Dioxin: (waking up) You must be his precious Slayer. Is he dust now and on his way here. Tell me I must know.
Buffy: Where is it? Where are you keeping it?
Dioxin: Do you even know where you are…this is no ordinary Hell dimension. I was the one who returned it to the way it was, the way Glory wanted it. Ever since Glory was banished from here there has been struggle for supremacy. As you may have noticed I now rule over this place.
Buffy: And that matters to me why?
Dioxin: Do you know what happens to demons once they die? Their essence arrives here for all that they have done. Only those who unset the balance of evil by either doing too much or too little arrive here. They are to spend the rest of eternity in a constant state of pain and suffering. But for those special cases I make sure they get something appropriate.
Buffy: I don't care about any of that.
Dioxin: You still don’t get it. There are some people here who are very familiar with you and who would like nothing better than a battle with you. You see if I release them and let them go they will find you. They can not die here since they are already dead but you on the other hand if you die here you spend eternity with me. I give the word Slayer and it’s all over for you.
Buffy: Just give me Spike’s soul and I won’t have to kill you.
Dioxin: (laughs) Listen Slayer once your friend arrives here I’ve got something very special planned for him. (reaches next to him and pulls a black cloth covering Spike’s soul) This I’ve seen and know what his personal Hell is. It’s you. (Buffy shocked) You don’t understand do you. His Hell shall be you and spending the rest of eternity with you. It will happen because of all the pain and suffering you’ve caused him is worst than anything I could ever do to him.
Buffy: (angry) You’re wrong.
Dioxin: His destiny is this place and he was here before briefly although I had no idea what kind of Hell would best suit him until now. Nothing he does in your world can change it. He can’t undo the past and his future lies here. His image of you will haunt him forever while he’s here. But I’ve seen all I need to see from this (picks up the sphere) now there is no need for me to keep this. Take it back if you wish but I will see him again. And he’ll see you again Slayer.
Buffy walks up and takes the sphere from his hand and walks away from him.
Dioxin: You wish to return it to him (laughs and then Buffy turns around) it will make it all the more fun once he gets here. His soul will eat away at him while he’s here you best do him a favor and destroy it instead of returning it to him. I can see it in your eyes if you do care for him you will destroy it and make his stay here a little bit easier.
Buffy: He’s a better man than you will ever know and a champion. He won’t end up here like you. (she throws the staff and it plunges directly into his chest) What your still…
Dioxin: (pulls out the staff) Did you think you could kill me in my own dimension. I can not die in this world. I grow bored of this. I look forward to Spike coming here. Now leave, I will give you a head start before I release a friend of yours.
Buffy runs out of the temple and heads back for the portal entrance with the sphere. Suddenly Dioxin says something in a demon language and someone appears in a cloud of smoke. It’s Adam and Dioxin smiles.
Dioxin: Listen Adam you have one chance to escape this place and you must follow the Slayer to get there.
Adam leaves and runs after Buffy. Buffy hears a roar behind her as she’s carefully running toward the portal. She looks behind her and she sees Adam and picks up the pace.
Adam: I remember you Slayer you are saved on my memory systems. I will terminate your programming for sending me here.
Buffy is moving as fast as she can to avoid any contact with the lava around her. While Adam runs without stopping feeling no pain as he comes in contact with the lava. Buffy is almost at the portal when she trips and lets go of the sphere. The sphere lands on a rock and is rolling toward the lava. Buffy takes a dive for the sphere and catches it before it sinks into the lava. Quickly Buffy gets up and dives head first into the portal. Adam is fast approaching the portal.
Buffy: We need to close the portal now Adam is coming.
Willow: Wait you mean cyborg Frankenstein Adam.
Buffy: Willow, close it now!
Willow: I need more of your blood to close it.
Buffy cuts herself and throws her blood into the portal. Just before the portal closes Adam sticks his arm into the portal and it closes around him which cuts off his arm. Adam’s arm flops on the floor for a few seconds before it disappears.
Willow: Some major déjà vu here Buffy. What was in that place and is that Spike’s soul?
Buffy: Do you think that you can reverse the spell and give him back his soul and memories.
Willow: Sure it’s not like I haven’t returned someone’s soul before.
Cut to:
Buffy and Willow walk toward the stairs and see Kennedy carrying an unconscious Dawn up the stairs. Without asking they know what happened just by looking at each other.
Buffy: Any idea where he went?
Kennedy: Not a clue.
Buffy: Dammit Spike I’ve got it all right here. I’m going to go look for him. Will I’ll call once I found him and I’ll keep him busy till you get there (runs off).
Willow: (to Kennedy) Let’s bring Dawny for Giles to look after.
Cut to:
Buffy runs outside and follows her instincts to Spike. She heads toward a nearby park a few blocks away. The park is dark with lots of grass and trees filling it. There are scattered lights poles barely illuminating the park. Also there is a fountain in the middle of the park. Buffy sensing he’s nearby calls Willow to tell her where she is. As she hangs up Spike steps out from behind a tree.
William: Nearly sunrise luv, don’t have much time to finish this. So let’s us be quick about it got places to see and people to kill.
Buffy: You don’t understand (holds out the sphere) this is you. This is your soul and memories. You’ll remember who you truly are.
William: Not another word about a soul or memories or sodding helping people. They can all piss off for all I care. I am “William the Bloody” and no soul will ever change that…shall we dance Slayer.
Buffy puts the sphere back in her pocket knowing the fight is inevitable and Spike rushes toward her. Again they fight with as much intensity as the earlier battle. But Spike is much more on the offensive while Buffy is trying to block and counter Spike’s attacks. Eventually she has to fight back and does so with some hesitation as she is not trying to kill him. Meanwhile Willow is almost there and running as fast as she can. Spike gains the advantage because of Buffy’s hesitation and is able to put her in a choke hold. He reaches into her pocket for the sphere as she struggles against him. He takes it out and laughs as he tosses it aside. Willow shows up and immediately starts chanting.
William: I’ve waited too long for this moment and I’m going to enjoy drinking from you.
Spike wants to snap her neck but just as the sphere flashes bright orange and catches his attention. He turns to look at it then suddenly an orange light shoots toward his chest. He glows bright orange as he drops Buffy. Staggering, a blue light shoots toward his head. He tries to stand but instead falls to the ground and is knocked unconscious. Buffy motions to Willow to come over to help carry him back before sunrise.
Cut to:
Buffy is sitting in a chair beyond tired and beyond exhausted from the events that have taken place. Next to her is Spike laid out on a couch and is still unconscious. A smile creeps over Buffy’s face as she is unable to resist. She has been sitting by his side all day not moving until he wakes. Hours have past and she is still waiting patiently for him to wake up. Everyone knows to not interrupt their first moment together since the Hellmouth. The others are not happy with Spike but are beginning to realize it was “William the Bloody” killing all those people and not Spike. Buffy is willing to forgive him as she believes he was not in control of his actions. The demon inside him was unleashed and it took Spike to stop him. She’s happy knowing that what she did was worth it to get Spike back. Then something in her system starts to creep louder in her head. What did Dioxin mean when Buffy was the cause of so much pain and suffering for Spike. Was them being together really Hell for Spike and could have all the times she rejected his pleas of love for her caused this. Was this the reason he stayed behind in the Hellmouth when he knew he wouldn’t make it out of there. She closes her eyes with pain and hurt as she remembers the last thing she said to him “I love you”. Was his response “No you don’t, but thanks for saying it” his way of rejecting her declaration of love as she so often did his. She loved him for a long time but didn’t want to admit it to herself. When she was finally able to tell him he just rejected it and didn’t believe her. Plus Dioxin said that once he dies he would end up in his dimension with her as his personal Hell. She didn’t want that for Spike but Dioxin said there is nothing he can do from now on that can change it. It is all too much but right now she only wants to see him wake up. He starts to wake up and she clasps her hand around his hand reminiscent of their last moment in the Hellmouth. He opens his eyes and Buffy gives him a smile.
Spike: Buffy…
Buffy: Spike…
Spike: Where am I? (starting to remember) Oh God what have I’ve done.
Buffy: Spike it’s alright no one is blaming you for that. I know you are a better man than that.
Spike: Still I’ve killed again and there’s more blood on my hands.
Buffy: That doesn’t matter now that was the past. You’re back now let’s just move on.
Spike: To what exactly I’ve been in two more battles in which I didn’t expect to live through. And I keep coming back. This time as “William the Bloody” somebody must have be having a sodding laugh bout now.
Buffy: I’m happy to have you back isn’t that enough (smiles and squeezes his hand).
Spike: So how exactly did you get it back…eBay.
Buffy: A bedtime story for another time (Spike gives a sinuous smile).
Spike: Speaking of which I need a ride to LA got me a nice lil bird who missing me bout now.
Buffy: (lets go of his hand) What?!
Spike: Sweet bird who digs the bad boy thing you understand. Been keeping a fellow warm for awhile now…bit taller than you though and a bit more meat on her bones.
Buffy: (obviously jealous) You should know big things come in small packages and I…I bet that she can’t cook or dress for any occasion or come up with a witty remark at will.
Spike: Not much for someone who can cook always been able to find my own meals. She leaves barely enough for the imagination when we go out. Besides don’t care for those bloody witty remarks, more annoying than anything. (Buffy clearly upset) I’m just pulling your chain luv no one waiting for me in LA. Just trying to make you jealous is all…is it working.
Buffy: (innocently) No, I mean…maybe little.
Spike: So where do we go from here pet?
Buffy: (quietly) I was thinking to my place…
Cut to:
Buffy and Spike are in her bedroom and getting ready to get some much needed sleep. Buffy has slept only a few hours in the past couple of days. Buffy is sitting up on the far side of her bed with Spike standing a few feet away.
Spike: You sure about this luv. I could always sleep on the couch. Not much for couches but would do me just fine.
Buffy: I’m not asking for anything but…can you just hold my in your arms again. I was just so happy being you’re your arms that night.
Spike: Kay Buffy I just need to clean up a bit is all (walks into the bathroom).
Buffy pulls the covers over her legs and reaches behind her for something. She pulls out Mr. Gordo from under her pillows and holds him up in front of her.
Buffy: (to Mr. Gordo) You knew he was back all along didn’t you (touches him on the nose). Shame on you (tucks him safely away behind her pillows).
Cut to:
Spike is inside the bathroom and splashes water on his face and looks up at the empty reflection in the mirror as he dries himself off with a towel.
Spike: (to himself) You can do this Spike…don’t be a soft wanker now (leaves).
Buffy is eagerly waiting for Spike as he crawls into bed. They give each other a glance that says more than words can ever say. She turns away from him but moves closer to him so he can wrap his arms around her. They are snuggling close to each other with Buffy stroking him arm as they lay together. They are in complete harmony being in each other arms.
Cut to:
An hour before sunrise Buffy wakes up smiling and turns over to Spike who is missing. She sits up wondering where he is and checks the bathroom. It’s empty so she goes completely around the apartment and no sign of Spike. Confused she goes back to her room and notices an envelope next to the bed that must have fell once she got out. She picks it up which it says Buffy on the front. She opens the envelope and reads a letter:
Dear Buffy,
Please don’t hate me for this but I think it is for the best. I had a dream last night or more like a nightmare. I died and returned a ghost but was unable to touch you and unable to hold you. You were devastated having lost me again and I just can’t put you through that once more. Also I know it was just a dream but someone somewhere sure doesn’t like me. When my end comes in this existence I know that there was no greater pleasure for a bloke like me than loving you. I love you Buffy and I know that you can never truly love me back. Our last moment in the Hellmouth when you told me those three little words I couldn’t believe I was hearing it. Especially after all those times you said that you hated me and could never love me. Now I do believe that you love me after what you did for me no one on this planet would have done. But Buffy my love for you is one of great love and passion that consumes and burns for you. The love you have for me is not the same. I’m sure someday you will find someone to love as I love you. I may never see you again as I know where my afterlife is destined for. You for sure shall rise to the heavens. I am ticketed to spend eternity in Hell. I will spend the rest of my days helping people and carrying on the good fight alone. No attachments as no one could ever come close to meaning as much to me as you do. Buffy you have to live and go on without me.
Courtesy,
Spike
Cut to:
Spike is outside Buffy’s apartment building with one foot inside the cab and tears in his eyes as he steps in and closes the door. He orders the driver to take him to the airport and out of Buffy’s life forever. He gives one last look at her window as the cab pulls away trying to hold back tears.
Cut to:
Buffy after reading the letter has her heart ripped out as she feels pain of an unimaginable degree. Immediately she burst into tears unable to stop herself as she squeezes the letter to her chest. Feeling pain thousands times over any pain she has ever experienced. Spike had hurt her in a way no other person can or ever will. She was left alone again but this time it was Spike who left her. In the Hellmouth it was Buffy who left Spike. She cries for hours before she eventually crumbles up the letter in anger and throws it across the room. She lies back down in bed on the side Spike was sleeping on and grabs a pillow and holds it tight.
Cut to:
Morning has arrived and Dawn quietly sneaks toward Buffy’s door and places her ear on the door to see if she could hear anything. When she hears silence she just strolls on by to the kitchen. Buffy hasn’t moved since last night in a sort of trance as she holds the pillow staring blankly ahead. Millions of thoughts and feeling are going through her but nothing shows on the outside. Dawn comes back and knocks on the door.
Dawn: Do you two want some breakfast even though it’s technically lunchtime… (no response from Buffy). Ok than I guess you two want some more alone time I’ll just hang out at the school then (leaves).
Buffy gets up still in a trance goes and locks the door and then goes back to bed in the same position as earlier. She just lays there holding the pillow.
Cut to:
Dawn comes back home and notices no lights on and goes back to Buffy’s room.
Dawn: You know you two should take a timeout or something to get some fresh air (still no response) Uhm I’m just gonna watch some TV before I go to bed.
Cut to:
The next day Buffy hasn’t slept or moved since yesterday. Dawn knocks and still gets no response so she decides to go back to the Slayer school and talk to Willow.
Cut to:
Dawn sees Willow at the Slayer school still helping out because she is bored and just can’t go back to doing nothing for awhile after everything that has happened.
Dawn: You know those two are gonna set a world record or something for the way they have been going at it.
Willow: What do you mean are they that loud and keeping you up at night?
Dawn: That’s the weird thing every time I go to knock or listen in, its complete silence. Like they tired themselves out so much that they passed out or something.
Willow: Well after sex you can get pretty tired (Dawn raises an eyebrow) I mean it’s not something that you should know anything about missy.
Dawn: The weird thing too it’s like they haven’t even left the room to eat or anything.
Willow: Maybe we should go check on them and strictly for health reasons of course.
Dawn: Of course.
Cut to:
Willow and Dawn show up in front of Buffy’s room and they both try to listen in.
Dawn: (whispering) Can you have sex and be that quiet.
Willow: (whispering) Doubt it and not any of the fun kind.
Dawn: Buffy…can we talk for a sec (no answer).
Willow: Is everything alright in there…no injuries or anything (no response). I don’t like this. Ok Buffy, Spike we’re coming in (turns the knob and its locked).
Dawn: (knocking) Something’s wrong.
Willow: (chants and unlocks the door) I unlocked the door and I’m turning the knob.
Willow tries to push Dawn away but she resists as Willow uses one of her hands to cover her eyes as she opens the door. Willow opens the door completely and sneaks a look through her fingers and only sees Buffy.
Willow: Where’s Spike…is he in the bathroom or something.
Dawn: (looks inside the bathroom) Did he leave while we were gone.
Both of them sit next to Buffy and notices that she is in a trance.
Willow: Oh my God Buffy what happened.
Dawn: Was the sex that awful?
Finally Buffy responds and cries as they both try to comfort her. She squeezes the pillow harder as she cries.
Willow: What…what’s going on?
Buffy: (crying) He left me…again.
Dawn: Why?
Buffy: This time he let me go instead.
Willow: What do you mean…
Buffy: Cuz he said that I don’t love him like he loves me…but I do love him more than he knows. And now he’s gone…
Willow: What do you want me to do a locator spell or a…
Buffy: No, just go both of you and close the door on your way out. I want to be alone for awhile.
Dawn: Sure if you need anything just ask (pulling Willow away who is still trying to comfort Buffy).
Buffy still crying doesn’t watch them leave. She reaches for Mr. Gordo but can’t find him. Angry, she throws off all of her pillows off the bed revealing Mr. Gordo. She grabs him and squeezes him tight and holds him there as she talks to him.
Buffy: (to Mr. Gordo) He left me again Mr. Gordo what was he thinking (he doesn’t answer) you would think going to Hell and back for him would prove that I love him. This isn’t over Mr. Gordo. It’s not going to end like this. This is not the end…
Buffy pulls the covers over herself and is completely covered. She is still holding Mr. Gordo and crying staying in her own little world…
Well there you have it my first FanFic and I hoped that you all enjoyed it. I was bored one day and dreamed up this story and decided what the hell and write a FanFic. I welcome all of your criticisms whether good or bad. Tell me if you loved it or if you hated it. But if you want to comment I only ask that you be specific as to what was you loved or hated. I am very critical of my own work and know that I need some improvements but after all this is my first FanFic. So once I get some feedback and I keep making some improvements I will decide if I am any good at this and if I will write another one. If enough people say they liked it than I will write some more. If you all hate it than I will keep any more FanFics to myself. (Note: This story is part 1 of a trilogy as a reader has commented that I should write a sequel. This was meant to be a standalone story but I eventually turned it into a trilogy. The next story is "The Thin Line Between Love & Hell".) Thanks for reading.
Buffy: I just don’t know anymore…what am I suppose feel…all these things are telling me something different…I know in my head what I should be feeling…but something else in the pit of my stomach tells me I should vomit at the thought…but who am I to deny my heart again after everything that’s happened with all the other men in my life…why does this have to happen to me now…he has done so much to make me hate him…but…he also has done so much good…could this be…am I still…yes…
I decided to add this scene at the last minute. I wanted to try something different and I don’t know if it has been done before or not in FanFics. This scene is meant to be an after credits scene like at the end of some movies. I left it ambiguous for a reason because I wanted the reader to take away from it what they wanted. That’s why there is no setting or place in time in which this happens. You can do with it what you please.