Teardrops On My Guitar by SpuffyGirl729

Buffy walked down the hall of school. It was the first time she had been back since everything happened. Her mother had let her take a couple days off to cool her head but they both decided it was better to get it over with. She had to face Spike sometime.

Buffy didn’t pay attention to anyone around her she was in a fog. She had spent most of her nights crying so she knew she looked horrible and tried. But she didn’t care. Spike had tried to call her constantly, left several messages. She hadn’t listened to any voicemails and haven’t read any texts. She just stares at the phone wishing it could turn back time.

Buffy let out a breath as she opened her locker. She was exhausted. Utterly and completely exhausted. As she put her books away she froze. With tears stinging her eyes she plucked a photo off of her locker door and stared at it. It was a picture of her and Spike from the Halloween dance. They were smiling and looked happy. She held back tears as she threw the picture into the back of her locker and slamming the door shut.

Buffy turned to her left to walk away but froze again. Standing not to far down the hallway was Spike. He was standing there staring at her with tears in his eyes. His right eye was a light black and blue colored with a cut in the corner of his mouth. Buffy let out a breath before she turned around and walked away.

Spike’s shoulder sagged when he saw Buffy his breath caught in his throat. Her eyes were puffy and red, and she looked like she had gotten zero sleep. It broke Spike’s heart to see her like that and know it was because of him. Spike rolled his eyes and shook his head as he turned around to walk away. He had to make things right. But she wasn’t giving him the time of day.

***

Spike tapped his pencil on the desk. He was sitting in his AP English class waiting for Buffy to show up. Hopefully now he could talk to her and hopefully now she would listen. Spike looked around, class would be starting any second. He prayed she didn’t skip this class. Spike’s breath caught in his throat when he saw her walk into the class.

He smiled softly as he sat up anxiously. He saw the hurt in her eyes when she saw him and it broke his heart all over again. Spike watched as she walked over to the teacher and whispered something in her ear. A confused look came onto his face when he saw the teacher nod and pull away from Buffy.

“Harmony? Will you please switch seats with Buffy for the remainder of the week?”

Harmony sat up and looked behind her. She smiled when she saw Spike right next to the empty seat. Spike’s eyes went wide as he stared at Buffy. Buffy looked to the ground silently as she moved to Harmony’s seat. Spike looked over at Harmony with horror. She batted her eyelashes and licked her lips. Spike groaned and put his head on the desk.

***

Buffy laid on her bed as she played with Mr. Gordo. Silent tears ran down her face, Spike had tried to call her five times already and sent her three text messages. She refused to look at them. When she walked out of school today she had to practically run to Oz’s van so she could get away from him. It seemed like he couldn’t take it hint. Buffy sniffled a little bit as she made Mr. Gordo do a flip. She couldn’t sleep once again. She needed something to take her mind off of Spike. She rolled her eyes when she realized that was a dream that wasn’t coming true.

Buffy looked over at her window confused when she heard a tapping noise. Her curtains were closed and window was locked. *He’s not really...* Buffy thought as she stood up and walked over to the window. Her eyes went wide when she opened the curtains to reveal Spike outside the window.

She shook her head and turned to walk away but stopped when she heard Spike say through the window, “Please Buffy. Just five minutes.” Buffy stopped and held back tears. He really had some nerve. She turned around and crossed her arms. She slowly walked to the window and opened it. When he tried to move inside she put her hands up.

“No. I have something to say to you.” Spike just sat back and nodded. It wasn’t much, but it was something.

Buffy nodded and looked to the ground before looking back up at him. “You were my best friend. And yes, I fell in love with you. I’m sorry I did. I wish I hadn’t. But I did. And what you did, how bad you hurt me. I.. I can’t believe it. I loved you so much. And you spat on me. My feelings.. everything that I felt, was nothing to you. I was just another one of your conquests.”

“Buffy no!” Spike interrupted. “Shut up!” She demanded. “You know there are other guys out there. Other guys that I looked over because I was so in love with you. Guys that could take away this pain, this sadness, they’re kind, honest and true. Guys that are good for me. So do me a favor, and NEVER talk to me again,” and with that Buffy slammed her window shut, locked it, and shut the curtains.

She cried to herself as she moved to her bed and collapsed on top of it. Her cries were interrupted by her phone going off. She sat up and stared at it for a couple seconds. Now she was starting to get mad. Buffy snatched her phone off the side table and looked at it. One New text message from Spike. She looked up and shook her head. He just didn’t get it. She whipped her tears away and hit accept. Her heart stopped.

‘I know I screwed up. But I will love you forever.’

Fresh tears sprung to her face and she started to sob uncontrollably. Why did he have to do these things? Why did he want to string her along? Buffy just stared at the text message. What did it mean? If he loved her why did he do what he did? Buffy decided right then and there she needed to know what happened. She shot up out of her bed and yelled, "Angel!!!!"

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