Teardrops On My Guitar by SpuffyGirl729

“But I thought....” Riley trailed off.

“I’m really sorry Riley. I just didn’t want to lead you on anymore,” Buffy said softly.

They were sitting in the library, trying to keep their voices down. “Is it because of Spike?”

Buffy’s head snapped up. “What? No, why would..”

“I know you’re in love with him Buffy,” Riley said as he looked at his hands. Buffy sat there in silence with her eyes wide. “Everyone knows. Except for Spike really. So it’s ok,” Riley said as he looked up at her.

Buffy stayed silent and looked down. Was is that obvious? And if it was, then why didn’t Spike know?

“I’m sorry,” she said softly again.

Riley shrugged his shoulders with a little smile. “It’s ok Buffy. But I just want you to know one thing,” Buffy looked up at him. “You’re an amazing girl. Anybody would be glad to have you, and if Spike can’t see that... then there’s something wrong with him.”

Buffy smiled sweetly at him and said, “Thank you.”

“And also,” Riley stated as he stood up and grabbed his back pack. “If you ever need anyone to make him jealous, I’ll always be here.”

Buffy let out a little chuckle. “I’ll keep that in mind.” Riley smiled at her again then turned around and walked out of the library.

***

“So he just said he wasn’t coming and left?” Willow asked shocked.

“Yup,” Buffy said from her spot in front of mirror.

Buffy was standing in front of her full length mirror putting the finishing touches to her makeup while Willow and Darla sat on the edge of her bed. It was finally Saturday and they were watching Buffy get ready to go to the Bronze.

“That loser. You know, he was in a bad mood all day yesterday too. I hope he was beating himself up for being an ass!” Darla exclaimed. Willow nodded her head and said, “Yeah! What the hell’s his problem anyway? You didn’t do anything to him, if anything he..”

“Willow” Buffy warned as she looked at her through the mirror. “Sorry.”

“Besides, with him not there I can actually sing one of my new songs I’m really excited about.” Buffy claimed as she walked over to her desk and picked up a piece of paper.

“Oh, but I liked Dear Diary!” Darla said as she took the piece of paper from Buffy. Willow leaned over Darla’s shoulder and they read the page silently together.

“Wow Buff! That’s awesome!” Willow squealed. Darla smiled up at Buffy and handed her back the piece of paper. “Yeah, sweetie. I take back my original statement. I like this one better!”

Buffy laughed as she put the paper back down and went back to the front of the mirror. “So how do I look?” Buffy asked as she inspected her outfit in the mirror.

Her makeup was minimal, except for the dark eye shadow that gave her a smokey look. Her hair was down in soft curls, falling a just below her shoulders. She wore a black lace spaghetti tank top that accented her white mini skirt.

“Very good!” Willow said with a smile. Darla smiled and nodded, “I really like your shoes!”

Buffy smiled and looked down at her feet. She wore black open toed heels with ribbons that crisscrossed up her legs, and tied in the back.

“Yes, very sexy!” Willow said with a smile. “Yup, you’re brother’s going to hate them!” Darla said with another smile.

Buffy laughed and closed her closet door. “Does he know about what Spike did?” Willow asked as both her and Darla got up from the bed and followed Buffy to the door.

“Don’t you think if he did Spike would be in a lot of pain right now?” Darla asked with a giggle.

All three girls laughed as they opened the door to reveal Angel standing there with his hand raised to knock. Angel looked his sister over and his eyes went wide.

“Oh hell no! Get back in there and change! You’re not going anywhere in THAT outfit, or THOSE shoes!”

Buffy rolled her eyes. “Oh, god Angel. Please, I’m not a little kid anymore.”

Angel nodded his head and said, “Yes you are. You’re my little kid sister, and you’re not wearing that I forbid it!” Darla stepped in front of Buffy putting her hand on her boyfriends chest.

“Leave her alone hunnie, she looks hot.”

“I don’t want my sister to look hot!”

“Gee thanks Angel!” Buffy whined.

Angel just shook his head. “Whatever, hurry up and get changed because Cordy and Xander just got here."

Buffy rolled her eyes again and said, "Angel for the last time, I'm NOT getting changed!!"

Rage filled Angel's facial expression before he yelled, "MOM!!!!" and ran down the stairs.

All three girls laughed and followed him down the stairs.

***

Spike looked at himself in the mirror and decided he liked the way he look. “I’m leaving Mum!” he screamed as he grabbed his jacket off the rack, and keys off the table and ran out the door.

He had felt like a complete wanker ever since what happened with Buffy. He tried to call her, but every time he picked up his phone he chickened out. He got into his car and let out sigh. He couldn’t miss Buffy’s big night. She was his best friend and tonight was special to her.

With that Spike made up his mind and took out his cell phone. “Dru... yeah hey... uh.. I’m really sorry I’m not going to make it tonight... Yeah I don’t feel to hot and my mum wants to spend some time with me... I’m sorry again luv. Uh, yea.. me too.. Bye”

Spike hung up the cell phone and threw it to the seat. That was the first time he had ever canceled a date with Dru, first time he lied to her, and first time he didn’t say he loved her.

*What is that about?* Spike thought.

But he shrugged the thoughts away and started the drive for the Bronze.

***

Buffy looked from behind the curtain at the crowd and her eyes went wide. There were so many people out there. She started to panic slightly. She turned back around to see Willow standing there with a huge smile on her face.

“You ready?” Willow asked.

Buffy swallowed hard. Her mouth was suddenly dry. “I don’t know if I can do this.” She said softly. Willow’s smiled disappeared and she looked confused.

“Why not, you were fine when we got here”

Buffy looked back at the crowed and said, “Yeah that was before I saw all these people”

“Don’t worry about it. You’re going to be great!” Willow said with a smiled as she rubbed Buffy’s arm.

Buffy smiled as a man came up behind her. “Two minutes Buffy.” Buffy smiled at the man then turned back to Willow with a look of pure horror. “I can’t do this!” Buffy shrieked as she shook her head.

Willow tilted her head and smiled. “Awwww,” Willow said as she patted her friend’s arm. “Stop it!! Now go! We’re all out there rooting for you! Good luck!!” Willow said as she turned around and walked back to the front crowd.

Buffy nodded her head, “I can do this!” Buffy said to herself.

“Ok, people here’s a little beauty right here from good old SunnyD, here to sing her very own song that she wrote, ‘Tear Drops On My Guitar’, everyone give a round of applause for Buffy Summers!!”

“Oh boy!” Buffy said to herself as she heard her name being announced.

***

Spike walked into the club and looked around. He hoped he didn’t miss her. Spike wanted to surprise her. And hopefully right any wrong he did yesterday. Spike spotted the usual gang sitting at one table and smiled. He was about to walk over there when he decided not to. He wanted to sit in the back so that Buffy couldn’t see him and he could surprise her later. If she saw him in the middle of her number then it might distract her. Spike wanted her to be completely surprised and give him that smile that shined up a room.

*She’s really beautiful when she smiles* Spike thought as he sat down at a table near the back.

*Since when do I think Buffy is beautiful?* Spike frowned.

He was so confused. He was having thoughts he shouldn’t be having about Buffy and he couldn’t explain them. Spike’s thoughts were interrupted when cheers and claps filled the club and the host came onto the stage.

“Ok, people here’s a little beauty right here from good old SunnyD, here to sing her very own song that she wrote, ‘Teardrops On My Guitar’, everyone give a round of applause for Buffy Summers!!”

Spike smiled. He didn’t miss her.

***

Buffy walked onto the stage with her guitar in her hands and sat down on the chair in front of the microphone. She gave the crowd a small smile as she got situated. Her smile grew when she saw her friend’s sitting at a table right up front. She took a deep breath and spoke into the microphone.

“Ok this is a song I wrote myself about, um, someone who is very special to me.”

Buffy took another deep breath then started to strum the guitar.

***

Spike watched Buffy walk onto the stage and smiled. She looked so beautiful. Her golden hair was shiny from the lights and her toned legs look like silk. She looked absolutely amazing. When he heard two guys at the table next to him talk about her, he had to hold himself back from getting up and beating the shit out of them. How dare they talk about his Buffy that way.

*My Buffy?* Spike thought.

He watched with wide eyes as she talked into the microphone, then listened to the music come from the guitar. Wait, this wasn’t the song she told him she was going to sing.

*Teardrops on my guitar?* Spike thought in confusion.

She told him she was playing DEAR DIARY. Why would she lie to him? Spike’s eyes went wide when he realized why. His name was the first word in the song.

***

Will looks at me,
I fake a smile so he won't see
What I want and I’m needing
Everything that we should be
I'll bet she's beautiful,
That girl he talks about
And she's got everything that I have to live without

Will talks to me,
I laugh cause it's so damn funny
When I can't Even see
Anyone when he's with me
He says he's so in love,
He's finally got it right,
I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night

***

Spike’s heart skipped a beat when he listened to the lyrics of Buffy’s song. He had no idea she felt this way about him. They were friends. They had always been friends, or at least that’s what he thought. Spike swallowed hard as he listened to the rest of the song.

***

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do

Will walks by me,
Can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes,
So perfectly,
The kind of flawless I wish I could be
She'd better hold him tight,
Give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes
And know she's lucky cause

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do

***

Buffy strummed the guitar softly. She looked up at her friends again and smiled. But her heart broke slightly when she didn’t see Spike. Granted, she wouldn’t know what to say to him because of the song she was singing. But then if he did hear the song, she really wouldn’t have to explain anything. It was all in the lyrics. Buffy took a deep breath and blinked back tears as she began to sing again.

***

So I drive home alone,
As I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down and maybe
Get some sleep tonight

'Cause He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
He's the time taken up,
But there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into.

Will looks at me,
I fake a smile so he won't see

***

Buffy smiled as she finished her song. All she could hear was claps and cheers. People were actually cheering for her and her song.

“Thank you,” Buffy said into the microphone as she grabbed her microphone and stood up. She smiled once more at the crowd and walked back stage.

***

Spike blinked back tears he didn’t know he had. Buffy had feelings for him. But what he didn’t know was how he felt about her. Sure he’d been having confusing thoughts about her, and reactions to her he couldn’t explain, but what guy wouldn’t have reactions to Buffy? But more importantly, they were best friends and told each other everything. Now he didn’t know what he was going to say to her when he saw her.

His panic only got worse when he saw Buffy walk out from backstage with a huge smile on her face. He saw her walk to her friends and almost get tackled by Willow. Spike stood, but then realized he didn’t know what to say to her. He knew Buffy, and if she knew he was here after she just sang that song, she would die of embarrassment. And he didn’t want to cause her that. So he took one last look at her and made his decision. He didn’t want to hurt her more so he turned and walk out the door.

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