Why did Spike do that? Did he not trust Angel with Joni's safekeeping? What has made the torment easier now? Now, Spike and Buffy are parted, they have no 'other half' to lean on. Will either of them feel better knowing that the other is with their child? Such a terrible quandry to be in... I'm not sure how I would have acted in Spike's place. Does that make me a bad mother or wife? Does Spike care less for Buffy than Joni because of the choice he has made? Shheesh... this is making my head hurt and my eyes want to shed water... what are you doing to me here FMS?

Holland Manners role continues to confuse me. The tool of evil but with a face of fatherly concern... and I'm not confident in Angel at all.

Nice update, pet.

Author's Response: Okay Chrissie...Let me try to explain- First, "Holland" may, or may not be "Holland" at all. Holland is who Angel expected to see. In fact, you may remember that he slipped up and called Joni "Dove" a while back. That's Spike's pet name for his daughter, remember? Spike may not have done it right, but he was trying to give Buffy hope. After all, the devil you know...that being Angel, is better than the one you don't. At least Buffy will know that her baby and husband still exist. What she, or Angel, does with that knowledge, is still up in the air, and *could* effect what happens to Spike.