Date: 01/21/2009 - 01:42 am Title: 50 Moments
Something fleeting. The opposite nature of vampire and slayer. Perhaps now he can't imagine it, but I imagine he will one day. One day he'd do anything at all for her... Love their intimacy.
Author's Response: One day, one day... But right now they're still coming from very different places, despite the connection they have. Thanks for reviewing!
Date: 09/16/2008 - 01:32 am Title: 50 Moments
This conversation was romantic and revealing, and I was sure it was leading somewhere permanent. Spike being truthful, letting Buffy in on the inner workings of his desires stopped her in her tracks. He's got no filter. He's a dangerous predator, he's not killing because he made a promise, not because he's changed. This is going to be a long road, isn't it? Thanks for making it so rich and entertaining.
Author's Response: I'm glad you liked their conversation. Buffy and Spike are not quite permanent, yet. They have something very deep, but they do have a road ahead of them. Spike is not ready to stop being a vampire for her, and he's honest about it. Thanks for reviewing!
Date: 05/27/2008 - 01:58 am Title: 50 Moments
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Date: 05/26/2008 - 11:24 pm Title: 50 Moments
naww such a sweet chapter... i can't wait till the next ones up:)
Author's Response: I'm glad you enjoyed it! Thanks for reviewing!
Date: 05/26/2008 - 03:12 am Title: 50 Moments
I lost track of this story due to RL stuff, but I'm happy to say I'm all caught up again and enjoying it greatly. Yay! You are really working the angst here in these last couple of chapters (and I love it!)
I like how you've worked Anya into the tale and I'm also glad that Joyce is dealing with the slayage and (for now) would apparently not object to Buffy keeping Spike closer. 'Course that may change when she inevitably learns that Spike is one of the nasties her daughter kills.
Clever twist in how you worked the mayor plot line in with the Angelus/Faith connection. Too bad Angelus knew of vengeance demons and how to disarm them ~ I would've liked to have heard Faith's wish.
I hope to be able to remain current with the story and will endeavor to comment more frequently.
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Date: 05/26/2008 - 03:08 am Title: 50 Moments
I lost track of this story due to RL stuff, but I'm happy to say I'm all caught up again and enjoying it greatly. Yay! You are really working the angst here in these last couple of chapters (and I love it!)
I like how you've worked Anya into the tale and I'm also glad that Joyce is dealing with the slayage and (for now) would apparently not object to Buffy keeping Spike closer. 'Course that may change when she inevitably learns that Spike is one of the nasties her daughter kills.
Clever twist in how you worked the mayor plot line in with the Angelus/Faith connection. Too bad Angelus knew of vengeance demons and how to disarm them ~ I would've liked to have heard Faith's wish.
I hope to be able to remain current with the story and will endeavor to comment more frequently.
Author's Response: Glad you like the angst! Really, I did not set out to write such an agnsty chapter, or story. But I guess "Spike's a killer" + "Buffy's not" = Instant Angst. But it will get better! Two steps forward, one step back... I'm glad you like Anya. It was always my plan to have her "out" what happened, since she could be there to observe it. And Xander needs someone. :) As for the Mayor, I always wondered how he got so many followers. Vampires taking orders from humans, and surely they could see he would destroy everything...? That scene in Enemies made me wonder what it would have been like for the Mayor to meet any of the other big bads. And Faith's wish will forever remain a mystery, I suppose. But it would have been good. Anya would know! I'm glad you liking it, and thanks for reviewing!
Date: 05/25/2008 - 08:32 pm Title: 50 Moments
Spike is going to lose Buffy if he doesn't stop biting after their agreement is over. Can't wait to see what happens next!
Author's Response: Yes, Spike is going to have problems in the future... Thanks for reviewing!
Date: 05/25/2008 - 08:00 pm Title: 50 Moments
I'm sniffling and my folks are staring! 'Hold me while you can'? This broke my heart! Damn Spike's honesty! *sobs*
I want more, hun, please!!!
Congratulations again for the awards, more than well deserved, hun!!!
*huggles*
Author's Response: Awww, don't cry too much! It will get better, I promise! Glad you enjoyed it! And thanks for the congrats!
Date: 05/25/2008 - 03:51 am Title: 50 Moments
I'm awful. I've been reading this from the start that but I don't think I've left a single review.
But I love this fic - what you've done with the characters is *amazing*. I love to see an update from you. Keep it up!
Author's Response: Thank you for taking the time to review! And thank you for the compliments! I'm glad you're enjoying the story so much!
Date: 05/24/2008 - 09:01 pm Title: 50 Moments
OMG THATS SOOOO SAD, WHY CANT HE JUST GIVE IT UP FOR HER, IF HE REALLY CARED FOR HER, HE WOULD!! i LOVE this story and am so happy that u updated. they were so cute and now their relationship is screwed. i really hope that spike in the future is willing to give up feeding and i hope that he sees that he just broke her heart. also i hope that everything works out and that they end up together and happy. PLEASE update as soon as u can, im DYING to read wat happens next. THANX
Author's Response: Well, their relationship isn't completely screwed. It will get better, I promise! Spike may be willing to do things differently in the future, but many things will happen before then. I'm glad you enjoyed and thanks for reviewing!
Date: 05/24/2008 - 05:41 pm Title: 50 Moments
Sweet :) Buffy jealous of her own blood and -> If you wanna cuddle, cuddle with me, not my neck Well, she's right :)
Loved Spike's POV, him telling how he felt getting nearer to Buffy and her becoming the Slayer then.
I hoped (when reading about Buffy's feelings) she would be able to tell Spike. In a way he did. Heartbreaking when he said he still would (want to) kill in the future.
I really hope they can make it work (that they can be together).
Author's Response: Glad you liked the chapter! The sweet bits and the not so sweet bits. Yes, this chapter had a sad end, but it will get better, I promise! Thanks for reviewing!
Date: 05/24/2008 - 12:46 pm Title: 50 Moments
Oh I hope they manage to work somthing out.
Author's Response: They'll have some ups and downs, but with two steps forward and one step back, they've got to get there eventually, right? :) Thanks for reviewing!
Date: 05/24/2008 - 12:19 pm Title: 50 Moments
Lord, I could literally hear hearts breaking with those last words she said. Mine right along with theirs. Beautiful chapter. Your words captured the moment, the feelings (every single one of them) perfectly. Doesn't get any better.
Author's Response: Thank you so much! I'm glad you liked it. But it will get better, I promise!
Date: 05/24/2008 - 11:57 am Title: 50 Moments
This story is so beautiful! I absolutely love the way you are developing the relationship between these two. It struck me reading the last few lines of dialogue, that Spike's desire to kill, his awareness that he will eventually do so again and has wanted to even as recently as the night before, could be read as a metaphor for the desire we all have for others, no matter how passionate a relationship is in the beginning or however much we love someone after that. The dilemma here on one level seems to be the impossibility of reconciling passion and love because, over time, the former will inevitably fade and we can't stop ourselves being attracted to others - the lure of their blood as it is expressed here. This is so carefully crafted and thought-provoking. I'm enjoying it immensely.
Author's Response: Thank you! I'm glad you're liking it so much! Hmm, I didn't think of it that way when I was writing it; I'll leave the metaphor to Joss, LOL. But so if Spike does give up killing, does that mean that he's is totally devoted to Buffy? Because I don't see him giving it up unless he wanted her more than he wanted anything else. Thank you for the comments, and I'm glad you're enjoying!
Date: 05/24/2008 - 11:53 am Title: 50 Moments
Beautiful.
Author's Response: Thank you!
Date: 05/24/2008 - 10:01 am Title: 50 Moments
That's lovely. I love your Soulless!Spike - unapologetic and brutally honest yet still loving, in his own way as confused as Buffy is by their powerful emotional connection. Also, this story has some of the sexiest, sweetest biting scenes I've read in, oh, maybe ever.
Author's Response: Thank you so much! I'm glad you like where my Spike is at right now. Yes, he cares for Buffy, but he's still very much a vampire. And thank you for the compliments on the bite scenes! I set out to write a very bitey fic, and do each bite differently (and we still have quite a few to go), so I'm glad people are liking it!
Date: 05/24/2008 - 09:16 am Title: 50 Moments
This is a beautiful story and very much deserving of the awards. Congratulations!
Author's Response: Thank you so much, and thanks for the congrats! I'm glad you're enjoying!
Date: 05/24/2008 - 08:42 am Title: 50 Moments
I haven't reviewed before, shame on me, but I am hanging on your every word. I go back and reread Chapter 44 every time you update... how you write the intimacy of the biting is just so compelling. This scene is even more satisfying. Mmmm.
The way Buffy reacts to Spike's killing, the way she resents his affection for her Slayer blood, the whole "it's still the same" exchange really gets at one of the things that sets this fic apart... your Buffy is still so connected to her humanity. It's cool to see a mature Buffy deal with being called. And if angsty bedroom chats with Spike help her work through it, I won't complain.
Author's Response: Well, thank you for taking the time to review! I'm flattered you're liking the story so much. Well, I wouldn't say she resents what he said about her blood, it's just something she never considered before. And I'm glad you like an older Buffy. I wanted to explore what being called would be like if you didn't have all the high school stuff to deal with as well, and eventuall get into some 'shades of gray' stuff. Thanks for reviewing!
Date: 05/24/2008 - 08:29 am Title: 50 Moments
Wow that was amazing! Best chapter so far!
Author's Response: Thank you so much!
Date: 05/24/2008 - 06:47 am Title: 50 Moments
Oops! Didn't meant to be THAT anonymous...
Author's Response: It's okay! :)
Date: 05/24/2008 - 06:45 am Title: 50 Moments
Wow. That was a great, very intense chapter. Heartbreakingly beautiful. Spikes revelation the moment he realized that for probably the first time, somebody stopped being afraid when he showed up, instead felt safe, trusted him... "Somethin’ not to hurt. Somethin’ to hold. Somethin’ precious to keep.” What a revelation for a killer. And that's what he is, and I think you bring out the conflict of that really amazingly. Yes, he WANTS to kill, he's a vampire, you can't just go 'Oh, hell, I'll drink pigs blood instead.' If you'd ever be able to go against your nature it would be a long, difficult process. Like it was for Spike in BtVS. I love how you write him, total honest about it. He doesn't understand it - not yet? And Buffy... falling in love anyway!? Holy f***ing shit! That's what tragic lovestorys are made of. So take your time to let the characters develope - even so I CAN'T wait to see how it's going on!!
Author's Response: Thank you so much! I'm glad you liked the sweet parts of their talk during the chapter. I sort of felt that they sort of got overshadowed by the ending. Yes, Spike is still very much a vampire who wants to kill. He can't just stop like that because Buffy wants him to. (In fact, I've got a very twisted conversation about love and what it means in a future chapter.) He's falling for Buffy, but that doesn't mean he just stops being what he is. And yes, Buffy knows exactly what he is, and she never meant to get this involved again, but it's happened. And now they both have to deal with it. Though I hope it won't be a tragic love story, when it ends. Thank you so much for reviewing!
Date: 05/24/2008 - 05:37 am Title: 50 Moments
A beautifully intimate scene. Really loved it.
Author's Response: Thank you!
Date: 05/24/2008 - 05:08 am Title: 50 Moments
Depressing chapter, but I love how you did it, that you made their issues bigger than them and something that is not going to be eaisly resolvable. Much as I love the Spuffy some authors make it too easy to be together and to many authors just agree that Spike could give up the killing without a problem.
Author's Response: I'm so glad you liked it! I was nervous about this chapter at first, because the killing thing hasn't been brought up for a while, and I was worried people would want it all to be easy. But Spike hasn't gone soft, and he still thinks about killing, even if he's not doing it right now. Thanks for reviewing!
Date: 05/24/2008 - 04:02 am Title: 50 Moments
You have honestly got to be the most fantastically brilliant author here on this site. No joke. No chapter is boring, it's not all just a smut-fest, and the Spike characterization is AMAZING. He doesn't turn into a pansy because of Buffy, and he's honest about how he feels. eg. he still thinks about killing. He can't just stop doing it forever just because Buffy wants him to. Your writing matures with every chapter (I can see a difference from the first couple chapters and the last couple chapters.)
Keep writing!
Author's Response: Thank you so much! I try to keep a balance in chapters and between chapters. And thank you for the compliments on characterization! Yes, Spike is falling (or has fallen for) Buffy, but he can't just stop being what he is because she wants him to. And thank you for the compliments on my writing! Looking back, I think I could have started this story out better (a longer first chapter and a bigger hook). But also looking back, it was a happy, fluffy time with not much conflict, which was the point of allowing Spike to meet Buffy before she was the Slayer. At any rate, I went back not that long ago and fixed some grammatical and structural things in the earlier chapters, so I feel better about them in that regard. Thank you for reviewing!
Date: 05/24/2008 - 01:51 am Title: 50 Moments
oh my god!!! u are such a great writer. i was hanging on to every single word you wrote.
great chapter
Author's Response: Thank you for the compliments! I'm glad you enjoyed!