I've only just found this story and started reading before I realised it had been a really long time since it was updated. I hope you haven't totally abandoned it because it has a lot of potential. Love the Spuffy and the way everyone is just trying to go on regardless... but Spike really needs to find himself some blood soon!

Awesome Awesome Awesome!! Love the awkwardness!
More please? :)

Really loved this chapter and the many layers of emotions that you included here. I love how Buffy and Spike are reading one another by instinct and observation and not basing it at all on memories. It definitely gives such an interesting perspective to their whole dynamic and what it's all based on. You put a lot of power into their first time together and I'm really curious where this will all go.

Looking forward to more!

Great first time for Spike and Buffy, I liked the equal parts of tenderness and hotness. :D I also liked the dream sequences, should be interesting to see what else turns up when the characters sleep. Good update!

That was marvelous, even if you did have to leave out the bowling. I love how little bits of their pasts are revealed through their dreams, even if they don't know that. I also love the fact that they took their time to have their first time, because they have no memories, and believe that they have no memories of their dating because they don't think it happened... And yet they seem to be going for it this time. Do hope they try to investigate Spikes hunger at some point. Don't want our favorite undead to become dust dead cause they don't know better. Lovely update, hoping for more!

Author's Response: Thank ye kindly. I always best enjoy the well thought out comments. I'm glad you enjoyed the Tabula Rasa-enabled twist on a first time. And don't worry about Spike, it's not like he can actually ignore the hunger. After all, hunger doesn't go away, it only gets worse...

So the memories are coming back? It sounds like it with Buffy and Spike having dreams.
Though Spike's dreams sound more like the 'every night I saved you' kind.
Loved the spuffyness. And Spike showing how much control he has over his demon. Buffy should get him some blood now, though. ;)

Author's Response: I'm glad you asked, because I should make it clear that the memories aren't coming back. I just thought the dreams were fair game because both Buffy and Spike have had recurring dreams in season six. I saw no reason why their subconscious would stop playing the film even if the theater had changed. So even though they're having the dreams, they don't know why or what they are. Hence, Spike couldn't add the context to his dream that he couldn't save Buffy. it really is his 'every night I save you' dream -- I figured he probably still had them at least occasionally, because even though Buffy's alive, she had still been going through psychological trauma from dying, and Spike probably on some level still feels responsible for her going through that.