Summary: Buffy and Spike used to be best friends back in high school, but Buffy soon discovered that she wanted more. Not wanting to ruin their friendship, she kept her true feelings to herself. When Spike's seemingly shallow relationship with a woman named Drusilla turned long term, Buffy couldn't handle seeing the love of her life with someone else, and walked out of his life without explaining why. Two years later, Buffy once again enters his life after hearing of a tragic accident, and finds that she’s not the only one who’s been keeping secrets all this time.
Categories: NC-17 Fics
Characters: None
Genres: Romance, Angst
Warnings: Violence, Adult Language, Sexual Situations, Spike/Other
Series: None
Chapters: 33 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes
Word count: 40984
Member Since: 06/08/2007
Membership status: Member
Bio:
I'm a Swedish Spuffy fan named Cissi, or well, that's what I'm called anyway. My real name is Josefine but for some odd reason I've been called Cissi by some friends and the name just got stuck :) You decide what you wanna call me :)
Been watching the show for a year now, started in february last year and how could I miss it when it was on tv? Anyway, I've just started to write fanfics, most of them AU Humans. In the beginning I only read the normal stuff with vampires and slayers just cus i thought it was weird with a human Spike and so on, but after I read Ashlee's fic Once In A Lifetime Love I just got stuck and now, they're my favourites :)
I apologize if my English isn't that great at all times, but for that I have my wonderful beta reader Chriss and also Dutchess Michelle now a days, they've been so helpful and kind all the time since I started to write this story. Thank you sweeties!
Membership status: Member
Bio:
I'm a Swedish Spuffy fan named Cissi, or well, that's what I'm called anyway. My real name is Josefine but for some odd reason I've been called Cissi by some friends and the name just got stuck :) You decide what you wanna call me :)
Been watching the show for a year now, started in february last year and how could I miss it when it was on tv? Anyway, I've just started to write fanfics, most of them AU Humans. In the beginning I only read the normal stuff with vampires and slayers just cus i thought it was weird with a human Spike and so on, but after I read Ashlee's fic Once In A Lifetime Love I just got stuck and now, they're my favourites :)
I apologize if my English isn't that great at all times, but for that I have my wonderful beta reader Chriss and also Dutchess Michelle now a days, they've been so helpful and kind all the time since I started to write this story. Thank you sweeties!
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[Report This] Published: 06/11/2007 Updated: 08/10/2007
Reviewer: Cissi Signed 
Date: 06/21/2007 Title: Chapter 6: chapter 6
Date: 06/21/2007 Title: Chapter 6: chapter 6
Loved the update! Interesting to know a little about Spike's hate towards Giles. Can't wait to find out what Buffy has written! Update soon :)
Author's Response: Will do. Thank you! :)
Reviewer: Cissi Signed
Date: 06/24/2007 Title: Chapter 9: chapter 9
Date: 06/24/2007 Title: Chapter 9: chapter 9
I'm so happy! I've got home from my grandparents place and wops... three chapters of Keeping Secrets I hadn't read!
I love this story more and more! I really hope you're updating again soon!
Author's Response: I will most definitely post again tomorrow. Thank you for reviewing, it means a lot. :)
Reviewer: Cissi Signed
Date: 07/06/2007 Title: Chapter 17: chapter 17
Date: 07/06/2007 Title: Chapter 17: chapter 17
And you say I'm evil with the cliffhangers :) I've read chapter 14 to 17, couldn't stop for one sec!
I loved the dream part, it was so well written, not that the other parts isn't put that one was special cus I've never read anything like it. I really could imagine all of it.
I also like how you keep doing the death of Dru differently, and Spike saying this is not what happend. That really brought me into this chapter. Seriously, you havet to update soon! Or now. Need more :)
Thanks for a lovley update!
Reviewer: Cissi Signed
Date: 07/06/2007 Title: Chapter 17: chapter 17
Date: 07/06/2007 Title: Chapter 17: chapter 17
And you say I'm evil with the cliffhangers :) I've read chapter 14 to 17, couldn't stop for one sec!
I loved the dream part, it was so well written, not that the other parts isn't put that one was special cus I've never read anything like it. I really could imagine all of it.
I also like how you keep doing the death of Dru differently, and Spike saying this is not what happend. That really brought me into this chapter. Seriously, you havet to update soon! Or now. Need more :)
Thanks for a lovley update!
Author's Response: Thank you so much Cissi, I'm so happy you liked it. Next chap is up, hope you'll like that too. :)
Reviewer: Cissi Signed
Date: 07/09/2007 Title: Chapter 19: chapter 19
Date: 07/09/2007 Title: Chapter 19: chapter 19
Aa you can't stop there! I wanna know what's gonna happen :) Can't wait to find out how Spike will react when he sees his father there. I really hope they can work things out! Great chapter as always!
Author's Response: Thank you Cissi! I have 2 more chapters already written so I'll update again soon. :)
Reviewer: Cissi Signed
Date: 07/12/2007 Title: Chapter 21: chapter 21
Date: 07/12/2007 Title: Chapter 21: chapter 21
Aw... I can't help it but I feel kinda sorry for Giles even though he hurt Spike so much. Spike should give him a chance. But we'll see in a week, huh? :) Hope you'll have a great vacation! I will miss you!
Author's Response: Aww, that's sweet, thank you!:)
Reviewer: Cissi Signed
Date: 07/21/2007 Title: Chapter 22: chapter 22
Date: 07/21/2007 Title: Chapter 22: chapter 22
Yey, you're back :) I have missed both you and this story! I really liked this chapter, it's amazing how you can make a chapter without that many dialouges so interesting! I thought about it before too. I can't wait to see what Spike's gonna do now... Loved it! And, also thank you so much for voting for me on access!! :)
Author's Response: Thank you, so nice to hear that you've been missed! :) And you're welcome, that pic was the best of all of them according to me. :)
Reviewer: Cissi Signed
Date: 08/05/2007 Title: Chapter 29: chapter 29
Date: 08/05/2007 Title: Chapter 29: chapter 29
Still as great as ever :) Buffy really did say some good things. I hope Spike will be able to forgive Giles in the future. Great chapter! I hope you'll update soon and to answer your little hint; an update of Twisted Fate will come soon promise, lol :)
Author's Response: Yay, love that story! *lol* Thanks for your review! :)
Reviewer: Cissi Signed
Date: 08/07/2007 Title: Chapter 30: chapter 30
Date: 08/07/2007 Title: Chapter 30: chapter 30
Oh I loved that scene where Spike remembers what Drusilla told him, it matched so good! Once again, this just show us how a great author you are! Thanks for the new chapter :)
Author's Response: Thank you so much for reviewing! :) *blushing at the 'great author'-thing. :)
Summary:
Categories: Orphan
Characters: None
Genres: None
Warnings: None
Series: None
Chapters: 0 Table of Contents
Completed: No Word count: 0
Categories: Orphan
Characters: None
Genres: None
Warnings: None
Series: None
Chapters: 0 Table of Contents
Completed: No Word count: 0
[Report This] Published: 01/01/1970 Updated: 01/01/1970
Reviewer: Cissi Signed
Date: 06/14/2007 Title: None
Date: 06/14/2007 Title: None
Interesting start! I think I will follow this one! I hope Spike gets nicer cus he's a real bad guy right now... Update soon :)
Author's Response: Well as of now he is bad, but where would the fun be if he was just Mr. Perfect from the start? Yes a much nicer Spike coming soon...
Reviewer: Cissi Signed
Date: 07/12/2007 Title: None
Date: 07/12/2007 Title: None
How could I miss this story? I read the first chapter a long time ago and then I just must have missed it... Shame on me cus this is such a great story! I had a hard time dealing with that Spike was so mean in the beginning, but now it all make sense. And, he's like a saint if you compare him with Angel ;)
You're a really good author, can't wait to read more! /Cissi
Author's Response: Awww, *blushes* Thanks! I am glad you found it!!! I like readers, throws cookies to all the readers! I will try to update frequently so you won't loose it!
Reviewer: Cissi Signed
Date: 07/15/2007 Title: None
Date: 07/15/2007 Title: None
Spike seems to realize that he do care for Buffy more and more. Sad about his mother... And I really like the Angel scene, he really gives me the creeps, you're writing very well :) Can't wait to see what's gonna happen! Also, I think you're handling all the different looks at this story very good, you're not getting angry with them or anything. Really good :) /Cissi
Author's Response: I am glad you hate Angel. I encourage it. More caring about Buffy, possibly a flashback on Spike... depends I guess.
As far as the different opinions on the story (I guess you have read the reviews) I believe that if people are not being 100% rude then there is no reason I should be angry.
I wrote this story, and I expected controversy, and I got it. But my story is affecting people, and I think that it says something about myself as a writer, people are mad at the characters not my writing. At least they thought enough of the story to leave a review, and I like reading them. However if someone leaves a cruel review, I will not hesitate to retaliate.
Sorry.... look at me rambling, Thank you Cissi for the review.
Reviewer: Cissi Signed
Date: 07/21/2007 Title: None
Date: 07/21/2007 Title: None
You're doing really great on this story, I like how you make Spike respect Buffy more and more. And, he's so cute when he's worried! Love this story, can't wait for more!
Author's Response: Spike is always cute! I will try and update soon.
Summary:
Categories: Orphan
Characters: None
Genres: None
Warnings: None
Series: None
Chapters: 0 Table of Contents
Completed: No Word count: 0
Categories: Orphan
Characters: None
Genres: None
Warnings: None
Series: None
Chapters: 0 Table of Contents
Completed: No Word count: 0
[Report This] Published: 01/01/1970 Updated: 01/01/1970
Reviewer: Cissi Signed
Date: 06/17/2007 Title: None
Date: 06/17/2007 Title: None
This seems really interesting, and I love your stories. They're so cute, you always make me cry :) And your english is just fine, I wouldn't think you were from Germany if I hadn't read your bio. Update soon please :)
Summary: AU, All Human fic. Recent 18 year old, high school grad, meets a Millionaire from London England, at the Bronze when he comes to Sunnydale for a change where no one but his few employees who work at one of the hotel changes he owns knows him. Starts with Willow and Buffy moving into the UC Sunnydale dorm, in late August.
Warning Buffy is 18 and Spike is 28, and there will be some Buffy/other.
Categories: NC-17 Fics
Characters: None
Genres: Romance
Warnings: Sexual Situations, Buffy/Other
Series: None
Chapters: 25 Table of Contents
Completed: No Word count: 36148
Categories: NC-17 Fics
Characters: None
Genres: Romance
Warnings: Sexual Situations, Buffy/Other
Series: None
Chapters: 25 Table of Contents
Completed: No Word count: 36148
[Report This] Published: 06/25/2007 Updated: 05/02/2008
Reviewer: Cissi Signed
Date: 07/09/2007 Title: Chapter 3: Chapter 3
Date: 07/09/2007 Title: Chapter 3: Chapter 3
Seems like I missed chapter 2 too, shame on me, but... well, it was pretty good when I think about it since I had two chapters to read instead of one :) enjoyed them both! I'm very curious now... Wonder what's gonna happen next, if Buffy gets pregnant or not... Lovley update! /Cissi
Author's Response: Well you will have to wait and see.
Reviewer: Cissi Signed
Date: 07/16/2007 Title: Chapter 4: Chapter 4
Date: 07/16/2007 Title: Chapter 4: Chapter 4
Yey I was right, Buffy's pregnant :) Really enjoyed this chapter. I feel so sad about Buffy... a lot happened to her in such short time. I hope they'll be able to help her!
Author's Response: Oh I think they will, watch out for more familiar people to show up shortly.
Thanks for the review.
Reviewer: Cissi Signed
Date: 08/13/2007 Title: Chapter 8: Chapter 8
Date: 08/13/2007 Title: Chapter 8: Chapter 8
Missed this story! great chapter, I really wonder what'll happen...
Author's Response: glad you liked it
Summary: When Buffy’s mother and step-father die in a horrible accident, Giles’s half-brother Spike and his wife Cecily step in to take custody of 16 year old Buffy. But as weeks progress and Spike gets to know Buffy more and more, he finds his attraction for her growing. Can Spike handle being the guardian to Buffy without letting his lust take over? Or has he bitten off more than he can chew? Warning: This deals with a relationship between a 28 yr old and a 16 yr old, so if that squicks you out don't read!!!
Categories: NC-17 Fics
Characters: None
Genres: Romance, Angst
Warnings: Adult Language, Sexual Situations, Spike/Other
Series: None
Chapters: 24 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 45050
Categories: NC-17 Fics
Characters: None
Genres: Romance, Angst
Warnings: Adult Language, Sexual Situations, Spike/Other
Series: None
Chapters: 24 Table of Contents
Completed: Yes Word count: 45050
[Report This] Published: 07/05/2007 Updated: 01/11/2008
Reviewer: Cissi Signed
Date: 07/06/2007 Title: Chapter 2: Chapter 2
Date: 07/06/2007 Title: Chapter 2: Chapter 2
I just started to read this story and I'm so happy I did! Love it already! Cute ending of the chapter. Can't wait to see what's gonna happen next. Please update soon :)
Author's Response: Well I'm gad you read it too! I'm doing my best trying to get out the chapters!
Reviewer: Cissi Signed
Date: 07/15/2007 Title: Chapter 4: Chapter 4
Date: 07/15/2007 Title: Chapter 4: Chapter 4
Oh, now things are starting to happen! Buffy seems pretty sure she'll get Spike's attention and she was right, she did! Wonder what's gonna happen now... Can't wait to find out! Loved the chapter!
Author's Response: Yeah she sure did get his attention. I mean what guy could resist the naked shower? Thanks for the feedback!
Reviewer: Cissi Signed
Date: 07/22/2007 Title: Chapter 6: Chapter 6
Date: 07/22/2007 Title: Chapter 6: Chapter 6
Thanks for a great chapter! Buffy and Spike are making some progress but somehow I think Cecily will show up soon...Anyway, great chapter and story!
I hope you'll have a good time with your husband and your child!
Reviewer: Cissi Signed
Date: 10/26/2007 Title: Chapter 10: Chapter 10
Date: 10/26/2007 Title: Chapter 10: Chapter 10
I'm so glad you updated this story, it's really good. Sad chapter, what with Buffy being jealous over Spike and Cecily. Somehow I could understand that Spike "went back" to Cecily, because he finally got the attention he wanted before. It's not so weird, but hopefully he'll choose Buffy ;) Great update!
Reviewer: Cissi Signed
Date: 12/10/2007 Title: Chapter 16: Chapter 16
Date: 12/10/2007 Title: Chapter 16: Chapter 16
Oh, wow some kind of turn! But I love it! I have to say I was pretty shocked that Willow would do that, I mean, they're friends! Bad, bad Willow... But that's a change, cus I don't get angry with her very often :) Great update!
Author's Response: I'm so glad you liked the twist! I wanted them to get caught a special way... Thanks for the review!!
Summary:
Categories: Orphan
Characters: None
Genres: None
Warnings: None
Series: None
Chapters: 0 Table of Contents
Completed: No Word count: 0
Categories: Orphan
Characters: None
Genres: None
Warnings: None
Series: None
Chapters: 0 Table of Contents
Completed: No Word count: 0
[Report This] Published: 01/01/1970 Updated: 01/01/1970
Reviewer: Cissi Signed
Date: 10/06/2007 Title: None
Date: 10/06/2007 Title: None
I'm so happy you updated! This story is great, and you left us at an evil place ;) Really incredible chapter! I so love sweet William and thank god for the cliche ;) Hope to read more soon! Off to read your next story :) /Cissi
Author's Response: Yep, i can be evil sometimes! So glad you enjoyed this chapter (cliche included) and there should definitely be more soon. Also thanks so much for giving If I Lay Here a try (if that's the one you're talking about) there's not very much support for it (probs because of the content discussed within eg miscarriage, angst) but I'm glad you're willing to give it a go, it means a lot. Thanks again
Reviewer: Cissi Signed
Date: 10/12/2007 Title: None
Date: 10/12/2007 Title: None
I saw that you had updated yesterday but I didn't have time to read it (as much as it bothered me, believe me lol). Now I did though and my god, did I love it :) I think you described Liam so well, really creepy and disgusting! Well, I'll go read your next chapter and then of course If I Lay Here ;)
Reviewer: Cissi Signed
Date: 10/12/2007 Title: None
Date: 10/12/2007 Title: None
Oh I trust you, I know you'd never leave us all heartbroken :) And oh my, incredible chapter - again! I seriously didn't think Jenny would send her away in the last chapter. Woah, this story can go in any direction! You have to update soon again, I'm dying to know what's gonna happen! But then, meanwhile I have If I Lay Here =) Lovely chapter!