Date: 12/15/2005 - 04:21 am Title: Twenty six
Well, that just about broke me in half.
Date: 12/14/2005 - 09:57 pm Title: Twenty six
Oh my.. still bad. Spike had no chance to explain, Buffy's too hurt. Hoping for the next chapter to bring a change. Hey - I can hope ;-)
Date: 12/14/2005 - 09:29 pm Title: Twenty six
i think the worst betrayal was angel's. Not when he fled with fred, but when, for years, he lived through a lie. He didn't say to buffy that he loved fred more, or 'sorry i don't love you anymore'... well, that' would have been truly sad, but it happens everytime. Insted, he flatly told her 'i never loved you'. Like spike, buffy has loved someone for years... but unlike him, she believed that angel was hers, that she was living the dream (silly for her to assume to be loved by the man who proposed and had a child with you, huh?). Spike is actually the one who shattered her dream, even if it was angel's fault that it was a fake dream. Moreover, spike is just an easy target... because he wasn't totally honest and because he is there. I totally understand his actions... he knew that in the long run that marriage was probabily doomed, and he just took the best chance to make everybody happy... angel & fred, himself. lindsey and, in the end, even buffy. But for her, now it seems that, again, her life is built on lies.
Date: 12/14/2005 - 04:04 pm Title: Twenty six
Good job painting the image of Lindsey's exuberance in the shadow of her parents' devastation. Buffy's got every right to feel duped by Spike. His "I meant to tell yous" are too little too late. She was fooled by Angel, believing he loved her. She's right to be crushed. I can't wait to see how you resolve this.
Date: 12/14/2005 - 03:38 pm Title: Twenty six
Good update...can't wait to see how this pans out.
Date: 12/14/2005 - 08:28 am Title: Twenty six
nothing like a little early morning angst to start the day, lol. great chappie.
Date: 12/14/2005 - 08:08 am Title: Twenty six
so sad :( But very well written
Date: 12/14/2005 - 06:01 am Title: Twenty six
Lovely chapter Brat...painful but very realistic I thought. Spike's reaction was from the gut, as he tries desperately to hang on to what he's wanted for so long and held tentatively within his grasp for such a brief time. Buffy was speaking from her obviously still raw emotions, especially that line about belonging only to herself and Lindsey...NEVER Spike. Never is a promise they say and though I'm sure it's not one she'll end up keeping it can be hard to imagine ever feeling differently when you're hurting. Spike earlier told Buffy that sometimes you need to let time do its thing and I believe Lindsey may be just what they need to keep them grounded while time heals these wounds. Oh and Buffy, Spike did not tear your family apart...it was already frayed at the seams! LOL. More soon please :-D
Date: 12/14/2005 - 04:40 am Title: Twenty six
I can't write because my heart is breaking some more right now. Waay too many tears.
Date: 12/14/2005 - 04:23 am Title: Twenty six
I'm genuinely feeling for both of them here. Buffy just keeps getting stepped on every time she starts to open up. First Angel and his lies, and now Spike who was keeping this very important thing from her, not to keep her from being hurt, but to keep is ass out of hot water. I can understand how she'd feel manipulated.
As for Spike, I'm feeling for him, too. To have something you've always wanted so close in front of you, and you'd do anything to get it... But I'm just not liking him very much. He seems to see Buffy as this...possession rather than a human being and the mother of their child.
Anyway, hopefully they'll both pull their heads out--Buffy to do some thinking and Spike to realize that she's gonna need some time to deal with such a blow.
Great chapter. :)
Date: 12/14/2005 - 03:59 am Title: Twenty six
Great chapter. Hope more comes soon!
Date: 12/14/2005 - 03:55 am Title: Twenty six
O why didn't he tell her.OK he made a mistake,avery big one.But Miss Buffy was not that truthful all those years herself.Lets hope time will heal.,lets hope!" Marla
Date: 12/14/2005 - 03:39 am Title: Twenty six
Ouch, bitchy Buffy strikes back! She has every right to be mad at him, though. Stupid Spike
Date: 12/14/2005 - 03:09 am Title: Twenty six
I understand Buffy being hurt by what Spike kept for her. I do not understand her overreaction. She treated Spike horribly here. She's blaming him and not Angel and Fred. She can't have an adult conversation with Spike and work everything out. She doesn't even know everything and she's back to being a bitch to Spike. To think this bitchy, emotional woman is a mother is just sad. So tired of her "woe is me" attitude. Don't really care for this Buffy and leaning toward Spike finding someone sane.
Date: 12/14/2005 - 03:01 am Title: Twenty six
So Buffy would have preferred Spike to have called Angel and Buffy and tell them he was not coming because Fred just admitted that she was the love of Angel's life and he didn't want Fred to break up their marriage just yet? How would that have made Buffy any happier? She still would have blamed Spike somehow for her bad marriage. Really don't know why Spike would want to put up with her. She hasn't been nice to Spike and would prefer to be with a husband who doesn't love her or treat their child nicely? Buffy needs therapy.
Date: 12/14/2005 - 02:57 am Title: Twenty six
For some reason, Buffy can not or won't put the blame on who really tore her family apart, which was Angel. Not even Fred really because Angel made a conscious decision to leave the wife and child behind to run off with Fred. I'm all for true love and all that, but he is truly the one to blame. And Buffy rarely does, sure she's angry and hurt at him, but she mostly directs the blame to Fred and now Spike.
Spike was wrong for not telling Buffy about Fred at least after everything went down and I can understand why she would be hurt and angry. But to blame him for tearing her family apart is ludacris and un-called for. I don't particulary care for this Buffy because she has done nothing but shit on Spike their whole lives...and he puts up with it for whatever reason. What I would like to see is her thinking about what has occured and about Spike rationally, and maybe hearing him out, cause any course of action she takes without hearing him out turns her into a selfish bitch. With everything she's gone though she has a right to be angry, but she needs to put that anger where it belongs. And it is most certainly not on Spike.
Date: 12/14/2005 - 02:57 am Title: Twenty six
I would think Buffy would be happy. She loves to put blame where it doesn't belong anyway - now she can yell at Spike, treat him badly, etc. just like she did for most of their relationship and feel good about herself because she can pretend it is justified now.
Get a grip Buffy. You can't be upset about Spike's deception when yours was worse and for a longer period of time. It's not Spike's fault Angel never loved her and left with Fred. It would have happened anyway. You're mad because Spike didn't come clean earlier when you were being a bitch to him? When you finally decided to be nice to him, he didn't want to risk it by telling you. Can't blame him. You're not exactly stable.
Date: 12/14/2005 - 02:52 am Title: Twenty six
Let's face it: Men are fucking assholes the majority of the time who would lie when the truth would do, just to keep in practice.
There, I said it.
Okay, I'm over my man bashing for now.
This chapter was so heart-wrenching and I'm beginning to wonder if Buffy should forgive; love anyone, except Lindsey.
spuf
Date: 12/14/2005 - 02:46 am Title: Twenty six
Overreact much? I can't believe Buffy actually said that Spike is the one who betrayed her and that Spike tore her family apart? What about Angel and Fred? He's stabbing her in the back when he makes love to her? I haven't liked this Buffy very much so far and now I dislike her even more. She's been lying to Spike and treating him badly for years. She gets to decide when she stops doing that and then decides that Spike needs to come clean immediately with everything the same minute she does otherwise she hates him? What an immature insensitive child. Really don't see what Spike sees in her. Not saying Spike is perfect but Buffy is a control freak with issues.
Date: 12/14/2005 - 02:42 am Title: Twenty six
i think buffy is being a major bitch. it's not even that big of a deal, i'm sure angel would have left anyway. blaming spike is only going go make things worse. she needs to just get over it already.
Date: 12/14/2005 - 02:34 am Title: Twenty six
So sad - I love your story please write more soon!
Date: 12/14/2005 - 02:18 am Title: Twenty six
i wish that she wouldn't have read the note but i really blame fred for all this mess that is happening and not spike